"I'd say I'm sorry to disappoint you, but I'm not. I excel at not giving a shit. Experience has taught me that interest begets expectation, and expectation beget disappointment, so the key to avoiding disappointment is to avoid interest. A equals B equals C Equals A, or whatever. I also don't have a lot of interest in being a good person or a bad person. From what I can tell, either way, you're screwed. Bad people are punished by society's laws, and good people are punished by Murphy's Law. So you see my dilemma." George Lass said, and although she was dead she spoke the truth.

If you've even watched an episode of the late great show called Dead like Me, you understand that George Lass is an undead grim reaper and holds all the angst of Joey Potter. But in life weather at heart you were a good person or a bad person, you were always punished. And in both circumstances could be done by your own self.

The worse of the two hurt themselves through their own faults and evil doings. The better human being hurt themselves through guilt and choices. We often punish ourselves for things that are now out of our reach. We may have made a choice about one thing or another that effects our future. But usually and most likely these long term choices effect more then us, more then one person because if they didn't they would be much, much, easier.

Charlie Radin walked out from her hospital room fully dress dropping her only half hospital gown on the floor behind her. But to her surprise Kale wasn't standing out there and shamefully Ian Rowland was. She grunted and crossed her arms looking around. "Where'd Kale go?" She asked quietly wishing she hadn't said anything. "To get the car around in front… he's coming back up." Charlie nodded.

"I got to get home." Charlie continued walking past him. And realized that perhaps this would be the last time she saw Ian alone, without a sole near her or Kale close by, secretly Charlie hoped this was true, so she stopped and turned around looking at Mr. Rowland. She shuffled her feet towards him and grunted under her breath.

"Ian." She said boldly. He looked at her hopefully as if she was going to ask him back to her house to talk, or do something more in his own dreams. He was praying she would drop her anger and natural sarcasm and talk like a normal, sweet being but Charlie Radin had lost that ability to connect the normal sweet being inside of her.

Instead she said this "There isn't one." She said coldly. "What?" Ian asked truly confused by her swift bob of her head moving towards him as she spoke quietly and backed away as she was finished. "You asked about the baby, our baby." She said taking deep breaths to make sure her body didn't collapse again. "and Ian, there isn't one."

Ian opened his mouth to speak to her, or perhaps to let out a small whimper because the wetness of his eyes reminisced of tears but Charlie Radin once again coldly turned away and slowly walked down the hallway, because in her mind Ian Rowland deserved nothing more of her, excspcially sympathy.

Kale met up her coincidently in the elevator and traveled back down with her. Charlie's arms were crossed and sadly enough she could feel tears muster up in her own eyes. "Your not suppose to be walking." Kale said jokingly. "When have I ever let myself do what I was told?" Her tone could have been mistaken for happiness, but inside of her she slightly was to be walking next to Kale out to his car where they would drive away together.

"You fell alright?" Kale asked as she put the car into drive. "I'm fine; I don't know what came over me, Strange right?" She asked uncomfortable. "Yeah, strange." Kale Manning said back to her. Although earlier this day he had obviously heard things that according to Charlie shouldn't be able to make sense of but of course he could and did.

Charlie could feel Kale staring at her as he came to a quick stop in front of the Radin household. She could feel his deep eyes dig into her face as she looked forward but couldn't help herself anymore and looked back at him. There were some awkward seconds of wandering and bobbing before they're lips finally met as they had before.

Charlie pulled away and bit her bottom lip which made Kale only want to be with her more. "I'll see you tomorrow." "Wait, your going to school." Charlie nodded in return. "Nothing can keep me down Kale; you out of anyone should know that." And even though there was joy in her voice her face was serious and her eyes stern as she closed the car door behind her.

Charlie walked inside and it was as if nothing was different. Had the even noticed an ambulance out side the house this morning she wondered? Charlie Radin grunted as she stood in the beginning of the television room curling her toes around the carpet looking at her brother, even though she would have rather not saw him tonight.

"Did you notice any flashing lights this morning Radin?" Charlie finally asked him sarcastically. "Oh yeah, well we all had better things to do then worry about you yet again." He barked. She shook her head and turned around facing the front of the house. "Is dad outside?" She asked before moving again. "Yeah, he took your bottle of vodka from your room." Charlie shook with anger even though she could hear her brother softly laugh in the background.

The next morning the drive to school was too short and took not enough time to miss homeroom. But with ease Charlie wondered the halls of the academy and waited by Kale's locker until the first bell rang. He came wandering up to her slowly with a solemn look on his face and his arms crossed.

"Hey." He said quietly. Charlie Radin looked at her boyfriend for a moment and grunted. "What's the matter?" "They know…" He said darted his yes. "They know?" Charlie added nodding her head mocking Kale's voice.

"I didn't tell them you went to the hospital Charlie, but someone did." She squinted her eyes and scrunched up her face. "Sorry Chase." Charlie finally shrugged as if it didn't bother her that people were talking about, again. "Hmmm yeah." Charlie muttered. "Are you okay?" He asked quietly. Chase Radin nodded quickly after.

"So where's Ian?" Kale asked obnoxiously as she turned the dial to various numbers on his locker as Charlie now leaned her shoulder against the end of the row of lockers. "I don't know." She grimaced rather angrily. "I have seen him since yesterday." And desperately Kale wanted to know if Charlie ever answered Ian Rowland. "No, Ian there is no baby." Kale wanted so badly to just ask her but of course he shouldn't, nor couldn't.

Kale darted his head to the right and Charlie followed him down the hallway ignoring stares and hugging her purse tightly to his chest. "Do you like want to hang out later?" Kale finally asked. And Charlie slightly giggled. His voice sounded nervous yet prepared to sound calm. "Um like a date?" She questioned. Kale nodded looking at her. "Sure Kale." She said with exasperation in her voice yet happiness and a clear cut smile. And as the moments went by Kale was beginning to forget what it was like to hate Charlie Radin. He almost forgot why he was toying with the idea at all. Kale Manning wondered how that feeling even ran through his body, he was falling hard.

"I'll see you later." Charlie said pointing her thumb to the nearest door. She leaned forward and slightly upward planting her lips on Kale's cheek before waving slightly as she walked away into the filled classroom. It wasn't long through Charlie's English Literature class that Kale began running through her mind. And the thought frightened her slightly because not long after his legs were running through came Ian Rowland's.

At this same time, Kale Manning was thinking about how easy it would to be to just tell Charlie he knew. He knew that she was pregnant last year and had an abortion. In Kale's perfect scenario Charlie didn't care that he kept it a secret from her, and she actually thought it was good that Amanda Hilfiger told Kale as one last "friend-ish" tale.

In this alternate reality Ian Rowland suddenly disappeared into a black abyss. Had Kale actually been so blinded to think these things? Of course he was. His lips curled and his heart raced as the bell rang. And all these marvelous thought disappeared in the same way he wished Ian would.

"Radin!" Kale called insticively as the other twin began walking towards the door. He slowly turned around and looked at Kale as if he had already known what he wanted. "Can we talk for a minute?" He continued casually walking closer to him. "What do you want Manning?" Kevin Radin cracked.

"Why'd you have to go around and tell everyone your sister was in the hospital?" Radin snickered shaking his head. "I didn't." He said boldly. "I don't give two shits if Charlie's sick or whatever excuse she has now, I wouldn't waste my time spreading that, I mean you guys hooking up is much more interesting then a few flashing lights." Kale crossed his arms leaned towards Kevin farther. "Then who did?" His voice was crisp and stern.

"How should I know?" Radin looked at Kale manning with widened eyes and a smirk across his face and shook his head. "Good luck with her." He spoke patting Kale's chest sarcastically before walking out into the crowded hallway.

There was more then one choice to made, in many cases. For many people. Things were changing or perhaps had already done so. Things can't ever stay the same, not for long enough. Because once you get comfortable with your surroundings everything changes on you again, and the process repeats itself.

But how can you deceiver from a good person or a bad one. A good person can make poor decisions and a bad person could have a streak of good hidden inside of them. You can make a mistake that changes your life and forever change the way people look at you. Others can do the same and it's just another day in the park.

Charlie and Kale as a couple was already something new and strange and having Ian Rowland was just strange and uncomfortable. But what about all the things that were left unsaid long ago. Its easy to say you let go. But letting go isn't just a one time thing you have to constantly do it over and over again, every day. And when the things you are letting go of come back to haunt you again, the trust within yourself is easily tested whether your good or bad.