I cant forgive myself for forgiving you.

all that you did to me, the cheating, the lying. the way you could make me suicidal just from insulting me. As I look back on you I feel so stupid. Everyone told me you where no good. But i didn't listen. Even after the 12th time i still forgave you. "baby I promise I've changed I love you and only you". I needed to hear I love you, but why I wouldn't I take it from reliable sources I will never understand.