This is my miss list
The list of things that i miss about you
The list of things that has ruined me completely
This is what i miss.

I miss holding your hand,
How you didn’t care about my sweaty palms and shifting fingers
My anxiety wasn’t a problem because you were just as nervous, even scared to be with me.
I really hope you were anxious too.

I miss your hugs
How they started out awkward and forced
Until you walked me to class and pulled me in for the hug
And how I didn’t let go because you were warm and just kinda held me.

I miss dancing with you.
We only danced once
I actually really hated you then
But I loved the dance.

The only time you kissed me,
It was on my forehead.
I miss your silly pecks and the awkward lingering kisses on my forehead
Or the first time how it was hot outside and I was sweaty, and you did it anyway.

You would trace my knuckles with your thumb,
And pout when I didn’t hold you hand.
I would roll my eyes and offer it up
And our fingers laced together as if it were the most natural thing ever.

Do you remember the picnic we went on?
You said it wasn’t a date but, truth be told it totally was.
We went up a huge hill like, four times
And then we sat at our picnic with your PB&J sandwiches and just talked.

At my best friend’s birthday party,
We sat in the corner at the end and finally shared a ‘couple’ moment.
I remember running my fingers through your hair and how we rested our heads on each other
We basically cuddled, it was delightfully disgusting.

We started showing affection at lunch
We would sit next to each other in the hallway and our knees would touch
You offered your speaker up for my computer to play my own music
You offered me food and even made me feed you once.

I used the term ‘bear’ for you much too often but, you always told me you didn’t mind.
In fact, you prefer I call you ‘Air-Bear’ though
You also came up with our ship name,
Which was ridiculous.

We would text for hours and when I was ready for bed,
You would either stall or tell me goodnight in the most disgusting cheesy way, ‘Mwah~’
We texted about the weirdest things
But I loved texting you.

I really liked you a lot.
In fact I still do.
I wish that we could go back to old ways,
So that I wouldn’t have to miss you.