We get chrome book here cool but everything  is blocked bummer. I write random shit in a website but after school is over i wont be writing anytime soon. You never believe what just happened i was caught. I was using my chrome book to cheat but i wasn't being ware of my surrounding and was caught. What if she tell my parents. I'll be ruined.   And she said it out loud. Everyone was complete shocked and there was a girl who was trying to be real nice but now she looking at me like just killed her mom or something. 

As soon as i got home i began to study my mom asked why.

"Well i cheated now i got to re take it" i could never tell her.

I lied to mom again. I'm such a lair. I want to stop with every lie i tell to someone i care guilt hit me like a rock to the head. But i never stayed long.

"Oh i have a test tomorrow from that i day i didn't come to school" i told her.

"Oh okay sweetheart" she smiled at me kindly like i was the the best daughter in the world.

I felt something strange in my stomach it hurts . it hurts a lot and every time i think about my lie my eyes being to fill up with tears. And i can't get it out of my head. I think its guilt . I never had before and i don't like maybe if i come clean it will go away. It will i'm sure but i'll get my mom pissed of at me.

Every time my mom is mad at me she has a thing of  making me feel like everything my fault. I'm a monster. Mom suffers a lot and she likes to blame her pain on when she mad. She rejects me as her child which by the way hurts like hell. Or she'll slap me and she slaps hard. She broke my tooth once.(ok i'm exaggerating but it did bled)                                                                          And with that i left to my room grabbed my journal a pencil and her phone and started studying.