*TRIGGER WARNING*

So... I have been through some pretty bad things in my life. This is a really hard subject for me but I know somebody out there will benefit from this so...

I have been alive for almost 16 years. During that time I have been sexually assaulted and harassed over 20 times now... I have seen at least 10 people I care about die in front of me. I have raised two kids. And I have survived my own suicidal thoughts.

Yeah. You heard me right. Now I am a little bit better now. 

So I really have been through hell. Then again it could have been worse. I could have been killed. Or my kids ( Brother and sister) could have been the ones who were killed in front of me.

Or it could have been one of them that killed themselves instead of My best friend. Of course it would have been nice if neither did but that is completely out of my control. 

I spent so many years blaming myself for everything that happened to me. But now i know that it really wasn't my fault it was just the wrong place at the wrong time. They were going to do it anyway i just so happened to be the one that they chose.

I guess what I'm trying to say is don't blame yourself. Its not your fault. Don't beat yourself up.

~ Bk 

( P.s. I care for you. If you want to talk I'm here.)