I have a problem differentiating dreams from reality. Any memories I have could be from a dream or real life, and when I'm in a dream anything I do in that dream affects me in real life. For example: wetting the bed. I would dream of going to the bathroom and peeing, and sometimes I would be aware that it is a dream and try not to actually pee, but other times I'd just be like, fuck it, and wet the bed. This was all when I was younger, obviously. Totally.
Another example is when my parents and I went to Mount Rushmore. A couple years after going, I had a faint memory of going to Mount Rushmore, but it had a dream-like quality of me noticing random things, like how the ground was really rough concrete, or there was an older man wearing a hat with a string standing next to us, or I kept catching my fingers in the chain keeping us from getting closer. After asking my parents, it turned out we actually did visit Mount Rushmore.
This made me realize that I have very weird memorization skills, but also that there are even more cases of me mixing real memories with dreams. It was as if the person in my head slapping on labels decided to hand the job over to a newcomer who'd never had a job and didn't even look at the job description. Of course, there are some dreams that are impossible to mix up with memories. There's one where I crawl underneath a house for some idiotic reason, then suddenly feel a squirming mass of bugs drop onto my back, pinning me down, suffocating me, surrounding me, killing me... but my nightmares are a whole other topic, and one that I should probably talk to a psychologist about (I have issues).
Another thing, completely off topic: I suck at conclusions.
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