NAOMI'S NOTES

5/25/16

Today I learned a lesson I should have learned a decade ago. No matter what happens never fall in love with your best friend.

Growing up I believed life was full of cliches, but the older I grew I figured cliches weren't that common after all. I wanted them to be. Life would be so much better, but then there's reality slapping me across the face tackling me flat on the ground screaming, 'Hah! You fell for it!"

The fall hurt, and boy, can you just imagine just how much I wanted to travel back in time just to hit myself upside the head and tell my past self to face reality?

It was too late, laying down on this cold park bench staring at the blank sky. I was doodling on the metal of the bench with my silver sharpie a broken shattered heart, while also trying to find all the possible ways of how it all could have worked out if I just wore my big girl pants and expressed how I felt. I had too many chances to, but I was too afraid. How hard was it to agree, to say yes, I like you too?

Impossible for me apparently.

My phone buzzed. I didn't even bother to even check it. I knew it would be my best friend, Roy thanking me for helping him create a cover-up as he hooked up with his long-time crush, now girlfriend, Allison.

Thinking back to the first time he told me about her, I remember not caring at all. Great he found someone to pine over, so he couldn't judge me whenever I was oogling my favorite singers on social media.

My phone didn't stop alerting me, so to mute out its painful reminder I slipped it out tossing it to the ground next to me, before curling up into a fetal position tucking my head in between my knees. The shattered heart I doodled was finished, beautifully and accurately depicting the state of my own heart.

Now Roy was actually taken, smitten by another girl, now it hurts to even think about him. For a moment I stupidly believed that he was mine. My guardian angel, my best friend, my Roy. I was so stupid. I know.

Hey, noxwalker here. This is my first time ever posting here, but I hope you guys enjoy. Chapters will be short, but I will update often ;))