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I have written this Novel being BL, but it does not have anything to do with me or my life experiences personally. I have nothing against anyone that has other pronunciations , or if you’re a girl and you like another girl, or if you’re a boy and you like another boy. My pronouns are he/him and I am a straight person that likes the opposite gender.

First journal entry.

July 21th, year 2021.

Argh…. I can’t even smash my head to a wall (I’m joking of course), sight and nod my head sideways in a disagreeable manner whenever I think about my life at College, the place that changed many in bad ways and left many with a sour and bitter feeling that they wasted three + years of their lives or even more, jus so that they would understand how most of their colleagues waste their life with snorting powders or drinking until their stomach says “Well… you’re an idiot, I’m heading out”, causing them to throw up at parties. 

Also, talking about parties, I’ve recently been to five, ever since I started College, which was around four-five months ago? So… yeah. One of them was very wild, with half of the college being there, and that was the place where I actually got into a situation of jumping in a pool from the top of the house, which was around fifteen meters? But if you’re wondering, no… I didn’t sleep with any girls, but not because I’m not normal, but it’s because I already like someone, and that someone is the same year as me, and he’s the most perfect boy that ever existed, and his name is Mason Veel, a perfect 195 centimeters, very popular ball player in our college, even playing in sports competitions.

 He’s also smart, very smart, not that sliiiiightly smart, he’s THAT kind of smart, alright? His hair is short, fine and blonde, his eyes small and filled with blue around the sight and he wears one golden earring in his left ear and always wears a deep-colored, purple lipstick which makes him stand out a lot from the other players and from the other students. Mason also has this kind of aura around him, which causes everyone to like him, and he does that so nonchalantly…He wears expensive cologne and always dresses in expensive clothes and has a well-built muscular structure, close to being skinny with muscles, so not that bulky type (now you know my type… great).

Even if Mason is the same as me, he doesn’t seem to be stressed by the other students like I think I would be. I dress like a boy, talk like a boy, walk like a boy, eat like one, but my mind is also on the same subject, boys. This is why I fear to talk myself out loud about this, because I’m not so loved, like Mason is, even though… I don’t know if he’s into boys, but maybe he is…? His nails are black and pale-pink, so… that’s a sign, right? Right??

July 22th -8AM

Today is the final exams before the summer break, and I’ve also had this day marked in my calendar from the wall, circled in red. Today will be my second interaction with him. The first time was when it was pouring outside rights after the classes, and he handed me his jacket, which was the niiiiiicest thing someone has ever done for me. Anything you want to say bad about him… you can’t, you just can’t!

Outside, the weather was beautiful, but the hot blazing sun rays, were blasting in Keron’s eyes, making him really aggressive in his thoughts, but this aggressiveness, in the real life was jus a groan and a slightly annoyed look on his face, having to cover the top of his eyes with his forearm if he wanted to see something in front of him.

The clouds looked just like scrubbed foams of vanilla mixture for cake, they were misty-ish; slowly riding with the flow, just relaxing themselves knowing very well that they will be admired from the ground level.

“Arghh… I’m frying in here, dude”
Sighted Keron, walking towards the entrance of the school, a high gate and many loud talks in the background from students that did not care to be on point with the schedule.

Inside the exam class, which was a big amphitheater with hundreds of seats and a large white roll of paper that was hanging from the ceiling, on which information about the exam would be projected.

Sitting down to his assigned seat, underneath a wooden table, with a computer in front of him, used to solve the exam digitally, Keron couldn’t hold himself in one place and looked back, swerving his eyes from left to right to see if Mason arrived, and he did. He was laughing with a bunch of boys from his own row and a row under them. The two of them suddenly made eye contact. Mason waved at him and smiled, startling Keron for a quick second,making him turn around with a loud blush on his face, sliding his back to the wooden support behind him, making himself unseen

*He saw me…but the plan stays the same. I will ask him out!*

Exclaimed Keron in his mind, being very decisive about the thought.

The main professor that was about to take care of the examination entered the room.

“Students, the final exam. For those that didn’t prepare themselves… too bad (chuckles)”

This small comment made the some of the students to laugh or chuckle too.

“Jokes aside, the examination starts in 2 minutes, so prepare, alright everyone!”

“Yes sir”
Exclaimed some of the students in unison

*The final exam. I have to pass it with the highest grade I possibly can’t, because Mason for sure doesn’t like dumb boys, he probably likes someone smart!*

“You can begin!”
Continued the professor

From that moment on, not a single word was said, but only the groans and sighs of the students that either didn’t understand the questions or didn’t study for the exam, but not for Keron, he was all prepared for two reasons. Mason and he wanted that scholarship really bad to buy new and cute clothing and save up some, for trips.

One hour and a half later, Keron stretched himself loudly, and pressed the “Finish” button, where he was taken to another tab on the screen, showing him the five courses in which he took the exam.

*80 percentage, 77… 88… 92… 91… Nice, I did it!*

Exclaimed Keron inside his mind, packing up his things and leaving on the exit door; waiting for Mason, a few meters from the exit.

Two minutes later, Mason came out. He was alone… it was Keron’s change.

“U-um… Mason… h-hi, d-... did you pass?”
Asked Keron with an awkward smile and shaky voice

“On all of them, but the Science one was kinda rough, thanks for asking. How about you?’

“I-I did okay… 92 points was my highest grade–”

“Ninety two? That is so crazy, how did you do it, you have to tell me”

*My chance to slide in, cleanly, is here*

“I could tell you… (looks away and blushes), if you would like to hangout with me, on Saturday, you know… (coughs and acts confused), just the (coughs) of us (looks at him, barely being able to maintain eye-contact).

“Interesting take, why not?”

Keron remained still as a stone sculpture for a quick second, understanding that he actually got his number, but came back to himself after Mason got close to him to see if Keron was alright.

“I’m alright, I’m good, hehe…he”
Awkwardly said Keron with a slight smirk on his face

“Well… (does a phone gesture with his left hand) call me whenever you want to hang out. Later, Keron (gives out a joyful smile and leaves).

Right after he left, a burst of joy punctured Keron.

*He said yes, he actually said it. I’m  soooo happy! Oh wow, man oh man… but what should I ask him, where should we go. Oh maaan… this is way too stressful for my heart. No. Calm down. You will just ask him on the phone where he wants to go, to show him some courtesy, YES, THAT’S IT!*

“Best summer of my life, here we gooooo!”
Exclaimed Keron, widening his arms in a loud stretch towards the roof, smiling uncontrollably and excitedly, right before he would fall on the ground, hitting his face, but getting right back up.

Checking behind and in front of him, to know if he should act cool like nothing happened, Keron saw no one.

“Au au au auch, my nose!”
Exclaimed Keron, jokingly, walking out of the exam’s block’s doors.