Friends with benefits? More than friends?. Don't sample the goodies unless you are willing to risk addiction and withdraw.
I feel so confused about our relationship half the time, But the other half i just get so caught up in it almost feels real. Most people would think i'm crazy just by being his friend but they'd probably think i'm insane if they knew i was sleeping with him. Even if i wanted to call off whatever we had i couldn't, He was my addiction. With addictions you can't just stop, once you have it you will always have it, some people just choice not to feed it, but i guess i'm not like others because this addiction is not something i can't get rid of or stop feeding, this addiction was something i must have, something i couldn't live without.I was willing to risk everything, even our friendship.
We were sitting together on the couch,Bakugou on his computer completing an essay and me watching Tv. The day seemed quite normal at first, Both of us un bothered by each others presence yet glad to have each others company. I wasn't really vexed until i heard something on the television.
"Jason just what is our relationship? are you just gonna keep using me?"
The lady yelled on the side of screen, Just then at that very moment all my thoughts became blank and all i could think about was the woman's words.
'what is our relationship?'
'are you just gonna keep using me?'
my thoughts broken to sound of bakugou's keyboard typing, and now all my attention was on him.
"Bakugou..."
"yeah?"
"what's our relationship?"
The room silent, His keyboard stop clicking, The Tv suddenly became quieter. But this was just a pause of silence, he never answered my question just after a couple of beats passed he continued his typing.
"Bakugou." I looked over to him . Even after calling out his name i still got no answer.He just continued to type on his computer.
Usually he'd be the one pissed off and screaming about me bothering him while he did his work, but this time it was me who was pissed off. Pissed off about the fact that he wouldn't even blink a damn eye at me, Pissed off about the fact that whenever it came to my feelings he'd pretending to be blind.
"Bakugou!" I yelled out his name but still, there he was as deaf and blind as one could be. Ignoring my voice and pretending as if i wasn't there.
The sound of the keyboard clicking got louder and louder the more he stared away from me.
My heart stopped. My body moved on its own. The computer crashed. My voice was finally heard.
"What the fuck ejirou?!" He stood up above me. yelling and cursing at me. This time it was me who didn't hear. I let my anger boil up, and my emotions began to overflow. I wanted to cry, for some reason wanted to kiss him but most of all i wanted to scream.
"Are you not gonna answer my fucking question?!" I stood up above him "what the hell are we?!"
He sighed, picked his computer off the ground, and sat back down on the couch "we'er just friends."
"Friends?" I scoffed at that word. Friends. "so what you just fuck all your friends?"
Again silence.
"Oh so i guess i'm just your toy?"
He glanced at me and then looked back to his computer, "Yeah i guess you can say that since we'er not exclusive.."
My heart then shattered.My mind stop working. It seemed like the only thing i could feel was anger and with anger people say anything, Nothing that we actually mean but things that we feel so through the heat of the moment i let him know exactly how i felt.
"You know what? you're such an asshole Bakugou, I use to think people were being over dramatic about the way you act, but you really don't give a shit about anyone do you?, You treat everyone like the fucking trash on the damn street." and with that he closed his computer and finally focused on me.
"Really? I'm the asshole? but yet i'm the one who let you stay in my apartment right?"
"What the hell does that have to do with anything?. Plus you only let me stay after you figured out he wouldn't move in with you."
The ground beneath me shook "You.." He grabbed onto the collar of my shirt "You get get the hell out of my house..
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