Ugh...

Pain...

An unbearable pain...

Swarming all of my senses I felt an excruciating pain as if I was currently dying.

As my consciousness was fading in and out of reality I started to recall the great memories my life had to offer.

'Let's see, ah yes!' There was that one time.

The most distinct memory I had of my father. We were sitting on the train waiting for our stop, so we could get home on time to set up for Mother's birthday. Father always somehow managed to be late from picking me up from elementary school. However, I never minded because I knew Father loved me deeply and had always been cramming extra work in at his job.

We had just left the train station and were on the way to get supplies from the local retail store when Father asked me.

"Hey Harry, what should we get your Mother for her birthday?"

"I don't know Father, how about a car? My friends at school say they go everywhere in a car and never use the train."

Father looked at me with a smile and looked as if he'd seriously thought about the idea. However, now thinking back at it, it probably hurt him when I asked this because our family could have never afforded a car at the time. But nevertheless, the question I had asked didn't dampen his mood. I mean it was Mother's birthday.

"Hmmm..." My 6-year-old self was thinking in heavy contemplation at the time.

"How about a box of fancy chocolates and a dress I saw her looking at the other day?", I had asked Father.

"Ohh, perfect champ, sounds like a great idea" He had replied with an ecstatic smile on his face. "It seems I'm most likely getting bonus points for this tonight!" He chuckled.

"What bonus points Father, can I also join the game?" I asked with a curious expression on my face. Father ended up smirking and saying that I was not old enough to play this game yet.

Disappointed I hadn't given up as I loved playing games as a kid and couldn't believe that Mother and Father would play one without me. Father and I would always play video games like Ninecraft, Nario, and Nonkey Dong.

"Please Father you know I am good at games, I never lose when it comes to Nonkey Dong."

"No Harry, you cannot play this game," He said sternly not giving me any opening to ask why.

An hour ended up passing and Father was getting anxious wondering what was taking her so long. She had never been late, not even once, always arriving at 6:00 o'clock in the afternoon. Father getting anxious just finishing messaged her wondering what was taking so long.

Feeling his anxiety peak after no response for 5 minutes he was just about to leave to go see if something wrong had happened to her at work, when then she pinged him back.

'Sorry work is running a bit late, I'll be there in a bit.' She had responded to the text with.

Breathing a sign of relief and responding back Father sat back down.

"She will be here in a couple more minutes son." He had said with a smile plastered on his face. His anticipation was at an all-time high as he knew she would love the dress he got for her on the way home.

However, she would never return back.

As it turns out a month later Father found out that she had been having an affair with one of the higher-ups at her job and on the day of her birthday she decided to never come back to our home.

Once Father found this out it broke him. Father had never been the same after that day like he had lost something very close to his heart.

He ended up feeling unbearable grief that he let his son down. He let his previous wife down, as she had left him for a bigger stack. And after another month I guess he just couldn't bear the pain of what his wife did to him. On this day my father's body was found dangling from off a bridge with a rope connected around his neck completely purple and lifeless of oxygen. He had hung himself.

This was how the father I had known and deeply loved had committed suicide.

*** As a reminder from the tags there will be mature content in this novel. As it seems like most popular novels always put the astrids in whenever intimate content pops up, I will be doing the same. *** - Indicates that there are intimate scenes in the chapter.