September 5, 2017

 "Rebel!" Nova shouted at me from the bathroom while brushing her hair. "We're going to be late," she continued. I laid in my bed dazed. Surprising I get to go to school today. I don't care for staying here pent up, nor going to school. Either way, I'm still not satisfied. I need something. There's something my body wants so bad, and I'm still unsure of what I want. Mae. That must be it. She is the only person I feel attraction to. Right?

  I crept out of bed and changed clothes. I went to the kitchen to find what I could make for mom this morning. We had milk and some eggs in the fridge, both on the very edge of expiration. I quickly made some eggs and went to the main room where mom and Eida slept. Eida lie next to her sleeping soundly. My mom coughed as I walked in to give her the breakfast I had just prepared for her. "Rebel," she said as I handed her the eggs. "You need to eat more than I do," she told me gesturing the plate back. "You are still growing, and look at me I'm already on the verge of death, so eat!" she shouted tears rolling down her face. I looked at her. Those eyes, filled with sorrow, pain, and despair. My heart aches now. "Stop it!" I exclaimed standing from my crouched position next to her. " I won't let you do this to yourself," she looked at me in shock as if I had never told her these words. "I-," my brain seemed to stop functioning at that moment. So many words, thoughts, and complications filled my mind. I felt my eyes start to water, so I left.

It somehow became a habit of mine to run away from my problems. At the time it seemed like the only solution. But, I was wrong it only ended up hurting the others around me. My family, mainly. I can't help but blame myself for so many of the troubles my family is going through. At a young age, I had always spent all mom's money on useless toys I would never touch again. I was never home to help clean, which made mom the only person who could do it because Nova had to keep up her studies as worlds next genius. While Eida was still young, and longing for attention. So when I was gone, there was mom. We didn't know she would end up the way she is. Sick, and back broken.

Throughout the day all, I had in my mind was what had happened that morning. At lunch, I saw Mae and I actually didn't care. I sat alone as always and pondered for a good while into lunch.

"Excuse me," someone said walking up to me. "I couldn't help but notice you're all alone. Would you mind if I take a seat?" He asked kindly. " I don't mind," I said. "Sit wherever you please." I said shrugging my shoulders. "Axel!" some girls shouted running towards us. "Why did you leave?" one said. "We were worried. We can't let a hot new student run off like that." They said, grinning idiotically. Come to think of it, I have never seen him here. I just assumed it was because I'm never at school. Now that they've said that, once I take a closer look he is really hot. Wait! What are you thinking Rebel? He's a boy! I shake my head, trying not to think about that anymore. The girls and Axel talked for the rest of lunch, even though Axel looked like he really didn't want to talk to them, like there was something he would rather do. A fake smile. A mask he wore to hide his true feelings from everyone. Like me.

Once I arrived home again, I grabbed the bike and rode to the store for groceries. I finally got paid today, so I need to get food for everyone. If mom stops eating again, she will only make herself sicker.

I chained the bike to a pole and walked inside. I grabbed a buggy and went around the store for the essentials. I walked passed some candy, but I know there's no room in the budget. Once I finished getting everything, I walked down to checkout. "It's about closing time, better hurry," I mumbled to myself. "Don't want to go back home empty-handed." When I arrived at checkout, I placed all the items on the counter beside the clerk. It wasn't much, just bread, a new jug of milk, and a new carton of eggs. "Is that it?" The clerk asked. "Y-," I paused. That voice. That kind tone, with a mask to cover sorrow. Axel, huh?

To be continued...