"Pathetic loser, why don't you just die."
"Shameless gold digger."
"Gross! How can alpha allow someone like him to stay in the pack?"
The voices around me
mixed in the blur as someone tightly pulled me up with my hair and
punched right into my stomach. The coughed up blood on the white tiled
floor below me.
"You think you can use
your dirty tricks to seduce the alpha!" Someone spat in my face and
pushed me back into the iron lockers. My head hit so hard, I could hear a
ringing sound. I don't dare fight the people standing against me. These
were the alpha family's closest family and friends and I would be dead
if I even bat my eye wrong.
"Tell me, why did you meet, Alpha Garry?" Someone asked angrily.
I couldn't even utter a
word with the splitting pain in my brain. Someone punched me in the
face expecting me to answer but the pain only made me lose all senses. I
remember I was hit more maybe more when I lost consciousness. I heard
faintly all the snickers, all the gossip behind my back.
I laid there for the
longest of time, no one coming to help me and no one will. I mustered up
all the remaining courage and walked back home. I did not dare go to
the nurse, she will report the incident to the principal and he will be
obliged to notify my parents which will end in more beating from my
I enter the house tip-toed without making a single sound. Thank goodness my parents were out for the day so that no one will notice me coming back from school earlier. Every part of my body is aching. I need to patch all the wounds and hope they will heal faster this time.
I do not have money to
buy fresh supplies whatever first aid I have is by stealing from my own
home and my sister helping me out but she could only do so much. My life
hasn't been always like this. I remembered the days when I was still a
child as I dab my wound with spirit making me hiss with pain.
I had loving parents and
a doting sister. I faintly remember the days before my 10th birthday. I
had a normal childhood, a normal family, I was I could say loved. But
the day of my 10th birthday changes everything for me. It was the day I
was most excited about which turned into the worst nightmare.
I came from a beta
family of a deer spirit. Everyone in my family had a strong deer spirit
and beautiful transformation and expected the same about me. Strong and
beautiful. On the day of the ritual, which is held on the 10th birthday I
patiently waited for the deer spirit to awaken and my transformation
into my deer form but nothing happened.
One by one all my friends and every child with the age of 10 turned to their spiritual form. The panic set in. If I didn't turn in to deer before midnight they will declare me as the weakling of the pack. I tried, I prayed, I begged every God and spirit but nothing happened.
I stood there in the
open field everyone staring at me with hushed voices, waiting. I
couldn't look up to my family or anyone to meet their eyes. I was the
As per the rules, when I
didn't turn into my second form the alpha declared me as the weakling
and I was banished from entering the packhouse, attending any pack
meeting, any celebrations, any important event. I was even forbidden
from entering the training ground and sports ground. I was allowed to
complete my high school education and stay at my home if my parents
wants to keep me.
Even with such a dire
situation, I was thankful, the alpha didn't force my parents to throw me
out of the pack and my parents let me live in the house. No one could
survive life as a rogue certainly not a weak person like me.
But everything turned
upside down for me an instant. My dad started to hate me and beat me
without reason. My mom mated to my dad couldn't defend me openly though
she always kept food for me and provided me with basic necessities. But
she never spoke to me again.
All my friends ditched
me one by one saying that they don't want to be friends with a weakling
and they started to bully me. The whole pack looks at me as worthless
omega. They cursed at me, spat at me, tortured me openly.
I fell down a deep dark
hole. With everyone against me, not leaving any opportunity to bully me I
lost all confidence and self-esteem. The nightmares were every night
occurrences, I could barely sleep and I could barely function in the
I thought of ending my
life many times but one thing kept me from doing it. One sliver of hope I
still had even after so much pain and suffering. My mate. I am waiting
for my mate.
When I was a child my mom told me so much about one's mate. How they are the other half of your soul. The one that would love me unconditionally, accept me as I am. The one who will make me happy. I tried to look for what will happen to my mate if I die and everything that I found was not good.
If I die my mate will
keep searching for me, a forever emptiness in their heart. Their spirit
will start to wither and they will die a slow death. My sister told me
to hold onto that hope. She was optimistic that my mate will take away
all of my pain. So here I am waiting for my mate.
I hope my mate is a boy. I never liked girls and when I started to understand the crush and attraction I was always one for the boys. I fervently wish he will find me soon.
I can't go in search of
my mate. They need to find me. It's not like I don't want to find them
but that I am not physically able to find them. I am currently 18 years
old and like others, I should have developed strong senses which would
have helped me find my mate.
I could only imagine
from all that I have read how it would feel when you meet your mate for
the first time. It is said that we can sense our mate through four
senses. First is the scent of your mate. When you smell your mate it
would be the best thing you have smelt in your life like your favorite
The second is eye contact when you look into the eyes of your mate you will lose yourself like floating in the peaceful stream.
The third is voice. The voice of your mate could put you into a trance-like state making you forget everything.
The fourth is touch. It is said that small touch of the mate could send you into a frenzy losing all control.
I could only hope to
feel even a bit of all this when I meet my mate. My body didn't develop
any senses as I never transformed to my second form. When my parents
noticed I didn't have any senses like others they sent me to the
experiment facility where I had to undergo torturous methods to develop
my sense artificially.
Even though it was
excruciatingly painful for me I kept going in hope that it might work. I
might develop senses as others and would finally be able to search for
my mate. But all was for nothing. After 5 years of experimentation,
heavy medication, and everything that the facility suggested I still
couldn't develop the senses instead I lost my normal human senses too.
Day and night I was
starting to get consumed by the darker thoughts. The hope in me was
slowly dying. I kept thinking what if my mate doesn't accept me the way I
am right now. I am not an omega that can produce a hire. I am not a
beta who can protect himself and his family. And I am definitely not an
alpha. My young sister is an omega. The question is who the hell I am?
Which category do I belong to?
My sister taps me on the shoulder and speaks loudly startling me.
"Brother, Wake up, Stop daydreaming."
"Khushi, don't sneak up on me, you will give me a heart attack," I said putting my hands on my chest dramatically.
My young sister Khushi
was the only one who treated me like a human. Her habit of blabbering
everything about her day and giving me a warm hug before going to sleep
made my life a bit more tolerable.
"Are they beating you
again?" She asked inspecting my face, "Brother, You need to complain to
the principal about them, they are going too far now," she said anger
rising within her.
"Khushi, we talked and
tried it. You know what happens when we do that. And there are only 6
months left for school, I will be fine," I said hoping she would
understand. But when she was angry anything would hardly go through her
skull. In a moment like this, I wonder if she was really an omega for
she displayed the rage of alpha when angered.
After getting her anger
out on how I should act on the injustice happening with me she quieted
down and started telling me the news of our noble lead alpha.
"Our alpha Darmin is retiring for his position and his son returned from the capital. I heard he will soon take over his father's position. We might get a new alpha lead of the pack," She said excitedly.
"I also heard from some
warriors there will be 5 days celebration to welcome the new alpha and
all of my friends kept talking about it. One of them even found the pic
of the new alpha and oh my god he is so hot. I saw him and I was like I
want him as mate, he is so handsome," She continued dreamily.
She continued chattering about how handsome the new alpha was! I could only chuckle for this was her 10th crush in a month. But I am glad she was happy with the news of the new alpha of the patch but all I could think was how it will affect me?
Can I hope that this alpha would be a bit kinder to me?