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Alright, alright so I know what you're thinking. "HERE WE GO, a confused boy that doesn't know whether he likes vagina or penis."  However, hear me out, I really like women and oh boy sex with women? DON'T GET ME STARTED!! I love it... 

Or at least I used to...  Now it's like I'm counting down the amount of females that have been in bed with me and it's never enough. Ever since I was 15. I am now 20. Yeah I know I know but I have a reputation to maintain, and it's not like I have any real friends to talk to. All of my "friends" Praise me like I'm some kind of God. 

However I don't feel like one. All these girls and yet that sense of arousement never comes. Not even when I lost my virginity. She finished like 5 times! Me? None… I thought I did, but truth be told I don't know what's wrong with me.

Oh my God!! Stop saying your gay radar is going off!!! I am NOT into boys. I have nothing against it. I just never found myself attracted to guys, or girls for that matter. I've only been in 2 relationships. First one she cheated and second, she left me for my brother. Go figure.

And the thing is I don't just want more i guess, cheesy i know and s*x yeah it's great but I want someone to love me as I love them. It's always been a secret desire of mine to open up, let these walls down and just have someone, see me? I guess, look i don't really know all i know is that i don't want to end up like my brother, you know the whole not having an inch of consideration, typical rich a**hole, sleeps around and feels like he doesn't owe anyone anything because he's a trust fund kid. I look in the mirror and I see him, UGHHH f*ck me man. One day, one day i'll figure this out   But no not today

*SIGH* well there's always tomorrow.