We all want to show the world the best parts of ourselves. Sometimes it isn't easy to do when we aren't confident in our personalities—worried that we might not fit in with the other people, who desperately change themselves to fit in. For me, I want to feel the thrill of enjoying life, but the feeling of excitement and rush is replaced with fear and anxiety.
Every night, I dream of not being shy, or anxious. Dreaming of going out with friends, and having the best days of our lives. Only to wake up to realize that I, simply am not the type of person who can be that way. To be that outgoing, or bring people together.
I have tried over the years but, social interaction gets me nervous, and I can't find a comfortable way to communicate with others. I can't be the me that I want to be and live that life I always dreamed of.
I don't want to be the next president, or a famous pop star, or anything related to things like that. I want to live a fulfilling life, surrounded by friends and family. It's so simple and possible yet, here I am struggling to get anywhere socially.
When it comes to family, I don't know my relatives. Originally, my family lived in Florida, we moved to Connecticut. My parents told me it was for their work but I will eventually meet my other relatives in time. Speaking of my parents, they work constantly but, always make time for me.
They are also a bit overprotective. Especially on nights when they have to work. We have a security system and if it goes off, the police are immediately notified. No one is entering and no one leaving. I think that's because I am always alone with no friends or anyone really, they think I might be a target for bad people who might want to take advantage of that.