This little testimony is about the first time I felt called and woke up. It didn't seem pretty in my opinion but I gotta share it. My dad and I were talking on our way back home. There was a situation about my grandparents or my mom's mom and stepdad because they weren't going to a new home when they should've over two years ago. My dad said he talked to some men and they basically all said that my grandparents were taking advantage of him because he didn't put them on the curb. He talked to a lady and she said that if he does the right thing in that situation and not think of the other stuff said, he'd feel peace. He told me he felt it. I didn't know why I wasn't feeling right as if something was wrong with me. But now I know it's because there was something wrong with me. I kept lying to not only God but myself. I was crying when I realized that. It felt like I had a fear that I didn't know was there or what it was. But I realize it's the true feeling of knowing you are a sinner. God is forgiving but in the book of Amos, he didn't like what a king named Jeroboam II had in his kingdom of Israel. God even used the term 'hate.' And what he said was not a joke. In chapter 5 verses 21 through 24, he said, "I hate, I despise your feast days, and I will not smell in your solemn assemblies. Though ye offer me burnt offerings and your meat offerings, I will not accept them: neither will I regard the peace offerings of your fat beasts. Take thou away from me the noise of thy songs; for I will not hear the melody of thy viols. But let judgment run down as waters, and righteousness as a mighty stream." I feel like that is happening to me. And it's going to stay like that until I repent.

 I talked about it to two friends of mine. One of them said that she reads the bible. I don't fully remember the rest she said. The other one said that it's normal for my situation and no one is perfect. I still decided to worship and I still want to talk to my pastor and some youth pastors.