I don't know when it all started, when did I start to feel insecure when did I start to doubt myself and feel like I was a failure...I don't really know, or maybe I do, it all started back in 2nd grade, I was a girl full of wishes and dreams I dreamed of being a princess rescued by her blue prince, it's funny when I think a bout now I thought everyone would of liked me only because a few people I knew and were important to me did, everyone said I was a sweet girl and that I was adorable many people told my parents they wished they had kids like me and of course my parents were really happy with me, i remember clearly when my mom told me that I was going to start school the next day, I was really excited and happy, I was happy I would make new friends after being in Mexico, my mom had to come to Chicago and leave me in Mexico with my grandparents I was grandpa's favorite, my mom one day called me saying she would come pick me up, the reason why I stayed with my grandparents instead of my dad was because my dad left us after my mom had me he didn't want to take responsibility and left, I remember telling my mom I wanted a dad and also a brother because all my cousins had brothers or sisters except for me so I really wanted a dad and a brother, and when my mom picked me up and brought me to Chicago I was really happy I was about 4 when I arrived to Chicago and my brother was only like 8 months I was really happy to have a dad and a brother, but anyways, I remember walking in the hallway to look for my class I was about 7yrs old when I started 2nd grade, I had 2 pigtails a school dress and a kitty backpack I was really excited to start school when I arrived at my class the teacher made me stand in front of my classmates and she started speaking, I couldn't understand what she was saying though so when she stopped talking I told her I couldn't understand her and she repeated again but she started to speak in Spanish " ah perdoname mija lo que quise decir es que si te puedes presentar" I then started to speak and started by saying my name then the stuff I liked and then by what where my hobbies, after that she showed me my seat and I started to do my work, I was the first one to finish and the one with the most correct answers, the teacher congratulated me and I was really happy I couldn't wait to tell my mom how well I did in my first day of school, after that we went to recess, I was near the slide sitting in a bench I was alone but I didn't worry instead I just decided to approach my classmates to talk to them and play, I suddenly started walking toward this group of 2 girls and a boy in the middle of the 2 girls they where really tall well taller than me actually I was the littlest one in my school the first girl had blonde bobbed hair blue eyes and she was really white and the other girl had long curly light brown hair with hazelnut eyes and freckles, and in the middle was the boy he had short hair blonde too and black eyes, I finally decide to say hi to them and asked them if they wanted to play, they just looked at me and I just stood there clueless with a smile waiting on their answer, then the girl with blonde hair said no that she wasn't feeling good, I asked her why and she just stood there and said okay fine let's play, for the rest of the day she acted friendly with me...but….. Little did I know it was just the beginning of a nightmare I couldn't wake up from.
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