"In our next life I promise to find you."

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*Badum...Badum..* what is it? Why my heartbeat gone crazy? Do I have a heart problem? 

"This is Jian your new classmate so be nice to him." Our professor said and guide him, I'm right next to him. I avoid my gaze to him and look again at the board. 

In board daylight, I felt dizzy. I all wanted now is to sleep. As much as I'm fighting it I become more more sleepy, can't fight it with mind over matter I guess. 

"Hey sleepy head wake up already." Someone shakes me like no tomorrow.  

"Stop, stop I'm already awake." As I open my eyes I see someone who look exactly like Jian but a girl version. 

Sliding out of his body is too fast. I just found myself already standing not too far to them. I watch them uneasy, it's uncomfortable watching someone who look really like me. 

"Why are you wearing those?" The guy asked as he adjusted his vision. 

"Aren't they cute?" The girl said and make some cute pose, the guy giggled and pat her head. 

"Stop that's too much." The guy flushed a little

"Whatever. Quick and pick up your thing." She said. Her voice sounds off but I just ignored it. 

"Quick Austin were late already!" She shouted that make me turn and see her. Austin? Is she shouting my name? 

"Jian slow down." The guy said while picking his things up. So he's Austin and that's Jian. Where am I? I just fall as sleep at literature then I woke up in this situation. 

I walked according to my instinct, I followed them around. I don't know why but somehow it's comfortable that no one can see me. 

"Hey you okay? Are you sick?" Austin ask Jian who look likes not well.

"I'm not sick, don't worry too much." She answered. This past few days she's not as lively as she is before.

"So what's bothering you? I guess you're bothered by something since you said you're not sick." He really know every inch about her. What a perfect couple they are. 

"I can't agree to it, my mom wants me to marry her bestfriend's daughter. She said stop my delusions already." Now she's crying but why would her mom wants her to marry a girl too. 

"Why can't someone accept us? That's too much, force you to marry her bestfriend's daughter is too much." Austin said in a half whisper and half shout way. 

Jian sobs has now sounds. As much as she want to be silent she can't. As of Austin, he's crying silently. It's so heart breaking to see them like this. I'm not used to it, I see them as a happy go lucky couple but now they look so miserably.

As time flies fast, it's now their seperation day. The day where they need to say bye to each other. Austin is crying while heading to the church. Its surprised me alot to see Jian as a guy (who's now really look like Jian the transferee). They obviously crying for each other's pain. I saw the bride walking to the aisles. Ms. President? That the first thing in my mind. She looks exactly like Ms. President, our class monitor. 

They truly love each other to the point that Jian cross dressed just for Austin's sake. They both knew that they'll be judged but still they persuades it. I can't help but to feel pity for them.

I made sure Austin will be fine after the wedding. At first he become depress and he'll cry to sleep. It looks like he really want to die already but someone came. She took care Austin, she's really a girl.

Something happened between them and it gave them a beautiful baby girl. I'm half-heartedly happy for them but still my otp will remain. Both of them already have a family, they grew apart, unfortunately. 

The time here is so fast, Austin is now mid-50s so as Jian. One day Jian's wife came to Austin's house delivering a bad news. Argh! She, herself is already bad news for me. 

"Why you're here?" Bitterness is all over Austin's voice. I saw how his wife expression change. 

"Jian is dying, he wants to see you." A lone tear roll over my cheek as she said that. Jian is dying? I don't know why but it feels familiar, I saw how Austin got furious and run to his car. He's physically fit so he can still run fast.

A lot of tears fell from my both eyes as I see Jian's situation. He looks very weak and sick, I cry out loud as I saw how Austin stand brave and didn't let any tears fall. 

"Austin you're here." A weak smile form to Jian's lips. 

"How are you?" Austin weakly ask,his voice it's in a verge of crying

"I'm fine now, I can die happily too." I can sense that he's saying the truth. A weak genuine smile is still plastered at his lips. "Austin, I missed you. In our next life I promise to find you. I love you, Austin." That was his last strength, his last words.

*tut.tut.tuuuut...*

No heartbeat, still I saw the last tear roll over Jian's side ways. 

"I'll wait for you Jian. I missed you too. Jian, I love you too." That was his last peak and he cried so loud. Austin poured his heart out crying to Jian's lifeless body. Everyone can't take it even me it's so heartbreaking. 

"Mr. Naldesa! Mr. Naldesa! Austin!" I wake up and found myself crying. I can feel my professor intently looking at me. She was so shook when she realized that I'm crying.

The discussion cut by the bell. I'm staring blank at our transfee Jian. I don't know but he looks like someone I know. 

"Don't tell me you're now bended because of that transferee." Iyah's teasing me again as always, she's my non label girl. At my peripheral vision I saw Jian turn to us and the bright aura fade. It becomes dark, I look at him curiously while he has a intent killer's gaze..?

"I found you." He softly whisper to me. Am I hiding? What's this bullshit his saying. When I'm about to talk he kiss me not minding the people around us. 

He FUCKING kissed me but we're both g-guy...

I don't know where this memories came from and whose memories are this. I can see someone who look really like Jian but a girl and someone who look exactly like me. As it flow like a falls, I now know what's he saying about "I found you".