This story is shown as a someone's monologue.
While walking on the beach alone, our protagonist thinks back about his ex girlfriend.
I wanted to leave it a bit vague as to what his real feelings are.
My own interpretation would be that he did care for her but wasn't sure whether it was love, and he didn't know how to handle it. His girlfriend probably noticed and eventually left. Then he could be feeling down because she left, or maybe it's not so simple and he is down because he is confused about his own feelings. It's a weird and often somewhat depressing experience to not know your own feelings or to feel detached from those feelings.
But maybe his heart was broken, and he's trying to convince himself that it's okay, because he probably didn't love her.
Maybe he is trying to attack her, even though he will probably never say or write these things to her.
Maybe he did love her but wasn't able to express it well and give her the love and attention she needed. For some people it's easier to love someone from a distance, as he says 'claiming to have loved you is so much easier than actually loving you'. And though it might hurt, being left, not having any pressure anymore, could be relieving.
I want to leave all these interpretations and more open to the readers and I hope it will make them think.
I did once date someone who I held no real romantic love for (he was more like a really good friend who I had real affection for - just not what he thought I had. He was also a bunch of things I thought I needed in a socially acceptable relationship, and would reciprocate efforts put in regardless of if his feelings toward the person themselves were just lukewarm. I always envied him for being somewhat simple like that). When things ended for good, it wasn't because he realized I had been fooling both him and myself into thinking I loved him, but rather because he decided it was in his best interest to find someone else to tell me the news. I was hurt most by her words (I still react poorly to the words "disgusting" and "monster") but to this day, he still doesn't know that the outer appearance of my feelings for him was a masquerade. There's no real point to sharing this story, other than that this comic felt like it really resonated with me for this experience.
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