See this is the thing I was never accepted into anything I was an 'emo' like no thats a kinda style but they kicked me out of everything i was nevre good enough for anyone I dont trust because last person I trusted was my "best friend" and he ended up thinking like the others and he knew what I was going through then in the 6th grade summer where I was almost going to start 7th grade I was taken by CPS I was only 12 I started my 7th grade there and I was basically treated the same being calld names not bad one but ones that yes did hurt like 

- fat, stupid, ugly, misitake, idiot, retarted,etc.

but the first word fat...yeah thats what start my depression went to cutting grew to starving myself see now i am 14 freshman not in Texas anymore I moved to California and I've been clean from cutting for 4 months I'm still trying to starve myself all im eating are liquids I'mtrying to stopbut its hard very hard but one day something happend something good that changed my life.....

Him<3: " Hey I'm Cole"

" Hey I'm Siren"

Him<3: " So guessing you're a freshman"

"yea that easy to tell?"

Him<3: ( chuckles) " no but never seen you here" 

                   then he helps me up with a smile just.... that smile!

"Thanks...." 

Him<3: " For what?" as he has a big smile looking at me in my eyes

(tries not to laugh)" haha for helping me up"

Him<3: " Oh yea haha no problem"

"So im guessing you're like a junior"

Him<3: "Sophmore"

"Ok cool, how you like it?"

Him<3: "It's ok I guess I mean it's cool for being school"

"Yeah I have Mr.Thomas right now"

Him<3: " Oh well you'll be mad at breakfast" he laughs

I laugh saying "Wow is he that bad"

Him<3: "Eh, if you get on his bad side he can be, here let me walk you to class"

"Don't you have to go to you're class?"

Him<3:"I'll walk you right now?"

I smile "Yeah, if you'd like"

we get to the class 5 minutes before the bell so we sit there in silence just looking at eachother then I break the silence

"So how long till the bell"

Him<3: "Oh shit 3 minutes, I'll see you at lunch?"

"Yeah" When I said yeah I seen him smile as he turned and I am pretty sure I turned red or just blushed a bit but I know I feltsoething something I never knew I felt before.........