I hope I can help someone one day but while I am living these types of feelings I know that I will only worry about myself for a while, my name is Miguel I am 18 years old and I will try to explain how I lived love, I was always an intelligent boy, skilled in any activity (I learn quickly), friendly, physically and mentally healthy, I knew what was good and what was bad, the characteristics of a quiet boy who lived his life only thinking about his future, of course, he had friends but very few were the ones who really I tried, I used to talk with 4 or 5 friends in total and I know I can count on them for anything since we have known each other for more than 8 years and we already have that brotherhood that is born with trust and time, well, at least that's what I thought , my relationship with my friends is or was (I don't know) very good, we stayed to sleep at each other's house, we did most of the things together, everything was going well in my life, I was calm, I studied, I had very good friends good, the only thing that in some In some cases I felt alone I did not know how to "calm" that feeling so every time I felt like this I tried to find the answer to that emptiness, when that feeling came to me I could not think clearly, I became totally another person, my attitude changed totally And that horrible emptiness lasted for hours, until I could find the answer, it needs love, I needed someone to tell me beautiful things, someone to inspire me, something to change the routine of every day and that's when I understood how lonely I was so I decided to change that.