It was a cold day when I learned the hard almost impossible truth. 'how could this happen' I thought 'why?' I would ask myself. I didn't know what to do I had no one. No family, no real friends. No one to help me. Should I get rid of it? Would that fix everything? I don't think I can do this. 

Thoughts flooded my brain as only more questions appeared. 

"Amber" the doctor said looking down at me pitifully. I looked up at her "you have options" she said handing me a bunch of pamphlets. "You don't need to decide right away take your time and think about it" she said as I took the pamphlets from her hand. I nodded, and stood up then slowly walked out of the room. 

I had just turned 21, no more then 2 months ago, and now I was pregnant. 'what am I supposed to do now?' I asked myself. after a few minutes of walking I reached my car. I sat down behind the wheel and just sat there. their was only one person I was sleeping with. only one person who could possibly be the father. "should I tell him?" I asked myself. "dammit I have to he has a right to know" I said trying to convince myself. 

I started my car and reversed out of the parking spot then threw the car into drive and drove off. Nathan the father of my child is an Alpha yet to find his mate. he is also my childhood friend. obviously things changed over the years and we had gotten a bit closer. 

after about 10 minutes of driving I arrived at his packs, pack house. I pulled into my normal parking spot and put the car in park then shut it off and just sat there. 'what am I going to say to him exactly?" I thought to myself 'should I just spit it out? should I ease into it? should I wait? maybe I should tell my family?' the none stop questions once again continued to fill my mind as I truly had no clue what to do. 

but deep down I also knew... that I had to tell him the longer I delayed the harder it would be. I took a deep breath and let it out. I slowly unbuckled my seat belt and opened my door taking the key out of the ignition. 

I got out of the car and walked up to the doors of the pack house. there one of his wolves let me in and I walked to his office. his door was closed which meant he was meeting with someone important. so I knocked lightly 3 times alerting him I was there then leaned against the wall waiting for him to be finished. 

suddenly I got an off feeling. I wasn't exactly sure what it was, but I just shoved away the feeling assuming it was just my nerves. a lot of time went by before I realized. normally his meetings wouldn't take this long. I usually waited more then 10 minutes but over an hour had gone by. the feeling from before began to well up in my chest, when suddenly his door opened. "oh Amber I didn't know you were here" he said nonchalantly. 

"I knocked over an hour ago" I said awkwardly "I just assumed you were in a busy meeting" I continued. "oh no I'm sorry I didn't hear you knock" he said sounding slightly different from usual. "are you ok?" I asked tilting my head slightly to the side in confusion. "yeah I'm great I actually have some amazing news" he said "actually so do I it's why I'm here" I replied looking down. "sure go ahead what is it" he said forwarding his brow.

"um actually, I'm really not exactly sure how you'll react to this but..." I said when suddenly a person appeared behind him. "baby what's taking you so long" the unknown woman said as she began hugging his waist. "oh who's this" the strange woman said. "oh ha, Amber this was what I wanted to tell you" he said with a big smile in his face. 

'please no' I thought "this is Sarah... My Mate" he finished. now I understood why he didn't hear my knock. my heart sank. how was I supposed to tell him I was pregnant now that he found his mate. "oh my God that's amazing Nathan, I'm so happy for you" I said happily throwing a smile on my face. 

"it's so nice to meet you Sarah, I'm Amber, my coven works with Nathans pack" I said. "mhm nice to meet you to" she said casually. "so what was your news again?" Nathan asked. 'f**k what am I supposed to tell him now?' I thought nervously. 'if I say I'm pregnant will it ruin their bond, I can't do that to him' I continued to think. 

"I made it into med school!" I said. it was the first thing to pop in my head, the only bright side is, it was true. "That's great Amber" he said as I slowly began to notice him care less and less. "med school aren't you a little young?" Sarah asked. "I grew up with a family of pack doctors so that helped" I replied. "if that's all can we go back in now" Sarah said and Nathan immediately, followed her back into his office and closed the door. 

I sighed, that didn't go as planned, not at all. suddenly I heard banging in a rhythmatic motion. "my god" I said then walked away 'of course they have to have s*x in his office' I thought as I walked away. 

I got back to my car and once again sat in my driver's seat. I closed my eyes and leaned my head against the head rest. I knew I couldn't be his Luna or anything like that since I wasn't his mate, but... I sighed. I really didn't know what to expect. I opened my eyes as tears began to well up In them and I stared at the ceiling of my car. 

and so the same question I had already asked myself a dozen times once again came out of my mouth.

"What am I supposed to do now?" 

TO BE CONTINUED