My sister screams at me to turn on the T.V. as she thundered down the stairs scaring me a bit. I turned off the vacuum and clicked on the screen and instantly I see his arrogant highness on the screen waving to the press. I turn away as sis and her side boy lounged on the freshly cleaned couch. Grabbing the broom I sweep up the pieces of debris out of the floor trying to not get angry. I wrap up the garbage I had finally filled with all the houses filth turning to be faced with my sis and her side man smiling at me.
"What is going on? Come on I am just trying to clean here." I said as the guy grabbed me and sat me down rewinding the prick on the channel. As his voice reached me I knew why my sister was so excited and why I was so horrified. I took off dodging the grabbing hands as I slammed open the door. I looked back only to dart out into the woods surrounding the house. I weaved in and out behind trees soon loosing the following feet. I gasped holding my chest hard heaving harshly. My heart was racing rapidly making me loose my sight slightly as I keeled down. No, stop don't have a panic attack here. No your fine your stronger then this. You got this now. My breath was rapid but it felt like I couldn't get enough. I felt the woods start closing in on me as I grabbed at the leaves underneath me. I force myself to stop breathing then slowly I breathe in deeply and let an shaky breathe out. My arms slowly stop shaking as my mind calms down . I stay like that for what seemed like hours and probably was as I saw the light start to fade to dark. I stand up heading back home. I can't be chosen no matter what. I can't have the president choose me. I was the only full crippled in my dome. It is kind of why every one picked on me. I was mentally ill and that was a rarity in our dome almost unheard of. When people noticed my red bracelet they only see Anxiety. A unstable person that can't control their brain. They see someone that can't preform right. I was weak to them. I speed up my walk as I hear a deer bound around behind me. I walk up the hill slitting my eyes as I walked in the door. There was Sis with a bunch of other girls. I lower my head as I was yanked into the throng of people as the door slammed behind me. I don't fight it as my anxiety rides to it peak. I shook gasping for breath as my hair was shoved into the sink being scrubbed to death with scenty stuff.
"Hey sis. Chill we going to make you amazing looking. Also when the press shows up Don't Have A Melt Down. Do you know how much publicity I will get if you get picked. My modeling pay will triple! I will make sure you know how to look amazing and shine away the well nonexistent competition." My sister popped her gum making me flinch from it. "Good thing father skipped no marks on you." They started unbuttoning my shirt and I finally snap. I grab the hand as my face drops and press it making the girl scream and yank her hand back. Sis pushed them back as I gathered my self together a little.
"To... Many.. People." I barely forced the words out as everything felt like it was closing in and I slide down the wall clutching my shirt to my chest for dear life. She nodded and started barking out orders.
"Hannah go to the store and pick out a dress. Remember she is on the heavier side and she has some massive love handles. Brenda go find all the make up you can find. Those dark circles won't fix themselves. Nikki. Go in my bathroom and find all my cleansing products. Including the diet cleansing ones. GO!" They all scatter as she ends with a yell.
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