Is Axel gay? No. I'm the only one that feels this way. He said he wants to be here with me, but we're just friends. I'm gay, and I like Axel there's no sense in denying it. But, Axel's straight. The girls fall all over him. So this "love" is pointless. Completely and utterly pointless. I stared at Axel in shock for a moment, then was released from my daze as a nurse walked into the waiting room. She came for us.

We walked to my mom's room and saw her lying in the bed asleep. "She should be fine," the nurse explained to us. "Though she has quite a high blood pressure." She added flipping through some papers attached to her clip board.

The nurse left after giving us the details on moms recovery. I sat down next to her bed with my head down. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have run off. She would be fine if it weren't for me. *Vrr Vrr* My phone buzzed. Micah, my best friend texted me. It read "Heyyyyy, sorry to hear about your mom. But, a little birdie told me she spotted you with the new hottie, Axel at the gas station. What's all that about? 👅💍😏" I managed to break a smile as I wrote back, "It's no big deal, I was stuck there and Axel drove me home is all." I sent the message then left, due to visiting hours coming to a close.

Axel drove me home, and all I could think about was what he had said earlier. I don't know how to feel. I know I'm gay, and I can't deny the fact that I like Axel. So where does that make us stand? How does Axel really feel? I wish it was that simple to just ask him how he feels but, it isn't.

I looked at Axel and he looked back at me. The moment our eyes met we forced gazes away. It seems like he doesn't mind hanging around me. I glanced over at Axel again. He was red. "Axel," I said worriedly. "Are you alright, your face is all red," I told him practically jumping out of my seat. Maybe I was just oblivious, or just plain stupid. "I-I'm fine," He assured me. "This is nothing." He said rubbing the back of his neck awkwardly. No, no I was just stupid.

The next day, Axel and I went to visit mom at the hospital. We listened to Axel's music on the way. Not exactly my style but we can roll with it.

When we arrived she was sleeping. The nurse told us she had not been getting much sleep, and that we shouldn't bother her. We left her flowers and a card then left.

  Once back home I invited Axel over for a while and we played Fortnite. Axel is way better than me. "How are you so good?!" I exclaimed putting the controller down and leaning back onto my bed. I looked at the time on my alarm clock beside the bed. It was already 10:11. "Hey, Axel," I said sitting up. "Yeah?" He asked as he switched off the game. "are you hungry?" I asked shuffling off the bed. "Yeah, I could eat." He said. His stomach growled, and he started to blush. I laughed. "Okay, where do you want to eat?" We both laughed and then smiled. I will never forget what happened...

To be continued...