now a days i feel lonely.

all alone i live day by day in my room.

i live in the fifth floor of my apartment complex, waste in my time watching funny videos and playing fps games on my laptop.

that's how i live my life day by day, i use to have dreams u know like anyone else but as time passes, just like everyone else, i lose them in time.

"the world will always be cruel" i sigh in a low voice.

it's because i want to be happy and live lazily. 'go out and have fun just like everyone else'. yea i see i'll do that. i would like to do that yea. i want to but i can't, i don't know why, i don't wan't to think about it, lets whats tv.

"oh its nigh time..... lets sleep"

just like every day now days i go to sleep with guilt and regret in my heart.sigh.

I'm sorry mom,i want to tell u that....

in the morning the first thing i felt was a sense of utter suffocation, i open my eyes to the burning sensation then immediately close them back.

"aww wha my eyes" using the burning sensation in my eyes as confirmation

i jolted my senses and came to a realization."shit smoke... cough.fire, it's on fire,cough cough".

now awake i ran out side fully aware of all the poor objects crushed in my way "WTF why" all my shits on fire, everything's on fire, i can't believe it i don't want to believe it. that's right even though I'm not usually that smart, my senses are nothing to scoff at dammit,usually even before i know whats going on I'm dodging speeding cars,falling pots,blanking out and almost crippling a convenient store robber or some other super-human feet of speed,strength or violence that makes my small brain feel even more stupid for existing.

to put things more simply, even though i don't look like it I'm the kind of person to most likely be the one kicking down doors axe in my right hand and fire-extinguisher in my left as i rush out of the building in situations like this and it's happen so much that I've already granted that state when I'm in the zone shit names like, Killer mode,Psycho mode, my diabetes , black-out, auto pilot, rage mode so on and so forth. that's how i know I'm the last person that should be in this kind of situation like waking up in the middle of a burning room.'shit,shit,shit,shitshit'.

"bullshit wtf is going on"yelling shit like that i finally enter 'rage mode' and with one big kick i sent my apartment door flying 2 meters down the straight passageway for some reason. but since I was in rage mode i couldn't think about the consequences of my actions, like if a flying door suddenly hits a poor guy trying to escape,what if he's a fireman trying to save us, no it's only when i was freed from my room and 'rage mode' that i realize these things,sigh, u see one does not blatantly try to speak to 'pure ignorance'.

"fuuck why didn't i just open the door like a normal human being" why do i lack these crucial brain cells in times like these to complete these simple task,SHIT.as i look up to most likely see the horrible things that i have done,scenes start poping up in my head. a old man or a young child scared and then running for there lives in a passageway filled with fire then suddenly some random junkie flings a door at them ,because the worlds at an end or something.I can just imagine their confused face looking at me and saying. 'Mister ar.. are u sick'. dear God burn me in this fire plz j.k.

"AhHH!" after unintentionally letting out a grown i look up cautiously to find my victims but unexpectedly there was no one in the passageway

"yes an empty passageway" i've been saved by the gods. with no time to think about these unnecessary thoughts i began the mad dash to the stair case.

"hmmm this is weird." i stop and looked around for some reason in this burning hell-scape. it's silent, somethings wrong is what my instincts are telling me . then i stood straight and took a deep breath of the depleting oxygen in the air then shouted at the top of my lungs. with a shout like bloody murder i spoke.

"FIRRREEEEEEE , FIIIRRREEE EVERYTHINGS BURNING" screaming this i ran to the stair case.

before i began my travels down the stair case i look back one more time but there was no one their. i tighten up once again and prepared to shout one last time before beginning my descent . but just then..

'boommmmmmm' sfx for: explosion.

At that moment something was cut.