I generally have two settings. One is peaceful, hopeful, generally pleasant. I listen to some indie band or other usually, like Cavetown or Hyukoh. I don't draw much in these moods but I might write music or read books. These moods never last long. My other setting is much more edgy, violent, and unstable. That's when I listen to shit like MCR or The Pinballs. During these I usually consume more horror/murder content like Junji Ito or the webtoon Bastard. I also draw drastically more because it's all I can do when I feel like my flesh is about to fall in on my bones. I spent (a surprising) couple months in the first mood and it was nice, but I've been slipping back into my usual dark mood for the past week.
Ft a mention of my other comic, Murder Sighting. I uploaded like two chapters of it a long while ago. I never really wrote more cause I was usually too numb or in too good a mood. I'm trying to figure out some actual plot and shit for it so I can reboot it.
Being creative does help with the darkness. My device was writing. At my darkest I wrote as many as 20 novels (many will never be published) It helped me to write characters I could make suffer and kill off - in many ways they were a part of me.
What I know is acknowledging your issues (as you are clearly doing) is one of many steps to help you through the darks times. Another step is learning coping skills as these problems never really go away we simply learn the skill to better manage them.
(Sorry if this advice was not wanted - the mother in me often takes over)
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