Not again I don't want to be stuck with all these negative thoughts with all these negative words the one in my mind uses to make me hurt but it hurts more when these words she's using our words someone told me I don't want to feel this way not again

Not again she screaming and yelling and hurting me making me feel like I failed making me feel like I'm not good enough because someone basically told me I wasn't I wish I could say it was just a bad day but I can't when it affects my whole life I went to work on sunday the girl who was supposed to open was an hour late I texted in my work group chat like I'm supposed to do letting them know that I was there and asking if anyone was coming to open when she showed up and we went in she told me that if she fucks up again to text her personally not in the group chat I told her that I didn't know she was opening I was being honest and she told me that I had the schedule and I told her the truth that my phone broke and I lost everything we didn't speak after that we just went on with work later that night I got a text from my boss telling me that it seemed like I wasn't interested in my job and that normally people would help out but I seem to just sit around and wait to be told what to do that hurt me more than I thought it would I cried and I was scared and I'm still scared I'm going to lose my job but I had my sister and our friends to help me I let him know that I tried to help out but they always tell me no and that I feel like I get ignored by the staff when I'm trying to ask questions or talk to them I let a person who barely knows me get to me and put me back in a place I didn't want to be again and I honestly right now I don't care if I lose this job because I don't feel appreciated I don't feel like they care that I even work there I won't let things like this get to me not again