I think it has been about a week since I last seen Jax I would try to catch him around school but that was nearly impossible due to us being on two separate floors. It’s not that I wanted to see him or anything I sort of just wanted to see how he would get treated here.

That has bothered me so much that people do pick on him about that rumor, it doesn’t make him any less of a person. People in this school are just shit and enjoy bringing other’s down to make themselves feel like a better person.

“Please tell me that you don’t have to baby sit tomorrow Elliot.” Shepley said as he walked with me to my car.

“No I don’t, that is tonight.” We reached my vehicle and I knew that I wouldn’t be able to get in yet so I sat on the hood and waited for him to continue with whatever he wants to ask of me.

“Yes, that’s great. So I just got word that there is gonna be this bonfire at the beach and we have to go man.” Of course we do.

“Maybe—“

“No, no maybe. We are going and it’s gonna be amazing. We need this. People from every grade is gonna be there so that means.” He stopped to look around and with that sly little smile he got an inch closer to me. “That freshman chick that every guy is trying to talk to will be there and it will be my chance to get her.” I wonder if Jax would want to go.

I doubt it but I might ask him when I see him tonight.

“Alright I’m in Shep.” He got excited and started saying something to me but I didn’t hear anything he was saying because I was watching the guy straight ahead walk out of the building.

Jax was leaving but he had two other guys follow him around and it looked like they were teasing him or something. I wanted to go over there and say something to them but I didn’t want to make anything worst for him.

I seen him stop at the corner to look around, maybe he was looking for his ride and they weren’t there yet. The longer he was there the longer they would fuck with him and I wasn’t just going to sit here and watch it happen any longer.

“Hold up Shep, I’ll be right back.” I didn’t wait for him to say anything back to me because I was already up and heading right to Jax.

He was ignoring the other guys as best as he could but I could see that they weren’t going to let up on him anytime soon.

“Come on Schneider, tell us. Is it true or not?”

“Yeah are you gay or what?” This is what they were saying to him? Seriously? He does not need that shit from no one.

“Hey Jax, how’s it going?” I just pretended that I didn’t hear what they were saying to him. Jax looked up at me and a smile formed on his face.

“Uh, good. Just waiting on my ride.” The two other boys looked at me with confused expressions so I looked right back at them.

“Who are you?” One of them asked me. I was not about to waste my time on either of them.

“Do you want a ride? I don’t mind taking you if you’d like.” Jax nodded at me and began walking with me to my car. “Who are those guys?” I asked as we began walking away from them.

“Nobody, they are just two guys.” He didn’t want to tell me which was fine, I wasn’t going to push him to tell me anything like before.

“Well if they are giving you a hard time you can always come to me okay?” He looked up at me and nodded. I couldn’t help but to notice the way the sun hit his eyes it made them look like a golden honey. I had to look away because I felt myself staring for far too long.

“Thanks Elliot.” We finally got back to my car, thankfully Shepley was already gone probably due to something or someone who caught his eye.

I didn’t want to have to explain to him who Jax was I’ll do that one day I just really don’t feel like it today.

We got inside of my car and he instantly put on his seatbelt which made me feel obligated to wear mine as well. No I don’t wear a seatbelt, yes I know that I should I just don’t feel like it so leave me alone.

“Are you coming over tonight?” I am guessing his parents told him that they were once again leaving tonight for another date.

“Yeah I am. Is that okay with you?” I said as I glanced over at him. His cheeks were a light shade of pink which was confusing to me, why would he be blushing over that? I literally didn’t say anything to him.

Jax didn’t say anything back to me, he only nodded and then looked forward. I do not know how to read him at all I have only seen him have two emotions so far.

Once was a smile and the other is his blank expression that he has all the time I just want to see something different from him I don’t even care if it is him mad or whatever. Just something.

It was beginning to get hot in my car and I figured it was because of my tie choking me or something so I grabbed it and started to loosen it up and then unbutton the top two buttons on my shirt, I felt a pair of eyes on me so when I looked over at Jax he quickly turned his head away from me.

I could see that his cheeks were unbelievably red, was he really just watching me do that? Wait what is going on right now?

“You okay man?” I had no idea what to say to him, why was he watching me like that?

“Yes.” He wouldn’t dare to look at me, it made me smile how bashful he was being.

“Well here we are Jax.” The moment I stopped the car he made sure to get out as quick as he could.

“Thank you for taking me home.” He peeked his head back in the car to say that and then left before I could say anything in return.

I got out of my vehicle and watched him walk across the street as casual as he could, he shouldn’t be embarrassed about that whole....thing. I mean I look good, I know and I would have watched as well if it were me. I ain’t mad if anything that was a compliment.

I am most definitely going to ask him if he wants to go with me to the bonfire tomorrow, without a doubt.

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When I got to the Schneider’s place they told me that Jax was still asleep and that he went straight to sleep as soon as he got home. I thought about going down there to wake him up but I didn’t want to freak him out.

So once again I was sitting here bored just like before. I could work on this project that is due sometime next week but that sounds just as awful as sitting here in the quiet.

I decided to put in my headphones and play around on my phone. Before I could even play something I had heard some noise from behind me I looked and it was Jaxon who was still half asleep. I was about to say something but I couldn’t help but to stare at him.

He was only in his basketball shorts and that was it. Let me just say this, for a fourteen year old his body did not look bad at all. He wasn’t as toned as I was but he would be there soon, I licked my bottom lip and took a deep breath.

Hold up, what? What am I doing? I can not look at him like that, it isn’t because I am against that because I am not. I am bisexual I just haven’t told single person about it, not even Shepley. I just shouldn’t be looking at him like that.

So I quickly turned my head around and did my best to act like I had no idea he was even up here with me. A part of me was wanting him to go back to his room and leave me be but that is not what happened.

There was movement and then out of nowhere he came and sat down on the couch with me, still with no shirt on.

“Oh hey Jax, I thought you were sleeping?” His semi short hair was everywhere which just made him look—no. No I will not finish that sentence. I refuse.

“Yeah I was. Have you been here long?” He laid his head back on the couch and looked over at me.

“Nope, not really.” I am acting so ridiculous, all of this because off a kid not wearing a shirt? I just have to remember that he is a kid. Kind of.

Things became quite silent between us I don’t know if it was for him but this was so awkward for me. I couldn’t even look at him because of those thoughts that I had.

“I know you would rather be with your friends on a Friday night instead of here.” He said it softly which made me leave my thoughts and look at him.

Was he feeling bad about me having to be here?

“You don’t have to apologize for anything Jax, I don’t mind.” Saying this caused him to laugh a little at my words.

“I hate that my parents don’t trust me alone, like at all. They literally never let me out of their sights and it sucks.” Why do the have him on such a tight rope?

“Why are they like that?”

“I fucked up a few months ago and the still won’t let it go. They turned it into a bigger deal than what it actually was so now they are afraid to leave me by myself.” He didn’t really clarify what it was that he done so I was assuming that he didn’t want to say.

“That’s the fun part of being an only child, your parents attention goes to you and only you so they want to keep you extra close.” I remember when I was that age my parents did not want me to do anything because they were afraid I would get hurt.

“You know, when I came out to them I honestly thought that would break their hearts but it didn’t. If anything it made them so happy because they knew that I wouldn’t go around getting girls pregnant or whatever. Their words not mine.” Hold the fuck up.

What did he just say to me?

“When you came out?” I knew what it meant but I wanted to hear him say it out loud to me.

“Yeah, those rumors? They aren’t just rumors it is a fact. The school keeps calling it a rumor which is fine to me I don’t really want them knowing anything about me.” So it was all true, he was in fact gay.

Is that why he was watching me earlier?

“I won’t say anything to anyone, that is your business to tell not mine.” I had no idea what to say to that. He totally caught me off guard with that one.

“Sorry if that was too much, I probably shouldn’t have said anything..” I could tell that he was regretting that so much and it made me feel so bad.

“No its all good Jax, I am probably going to be here more often so it is perfectly cool with me if you are open around me.” I gave him my best smile to reassure him that it was okay and he returned it. “What are you doing tomorrow?” This was the best time to ask him about the bonfire.

“Well, nothing.”

“Tomorrow a lot of people from school are going to the beach for a bonfire. Would you like to join me? Well my friend Shepley would be with me as well so would you like to join us?” He thought about it for a moment before saying anything to me.

“Are you sure that I can even go Elliot? Since I am a freshman and all?” Is this what was going to stop him from going?

“Totally, Shepley was telling me that basically all grades are welcome.” I didn’t want to add the part about him trying to get with one because I didn’t want him thinking that is what I was doing. I legit just wanted him there with me. 

“I mean, yeah I guess so.” The look he was giving me made him look so innocent but I had a feeling that he was nowhere near that. 

Out of nowhere my thoughts started to lose control. 

There was so much more that I wanted to know about him and I mean in more than one way. He was attractive for his age and he seemed so mature that it kept getting to my head. 

I knew that I couldn’t make any type of move on him due to my age that would be so weird. 

But I could not help but to have the urge to learn so much more about him, it was driving me insane and I could not figure it out at all. 

“Are you okay Elliot?” 

“Yeah I’m good, sorry I got lost in thought.” At this moment I made a promise to myself.

I was not going to make this go any further than a friendship. I am perfectly okay with hanging out with him when people are around and when I ‘baby sit’ him I am going to remain professional.

Can I even use that word in the same sentence as baby sitting? Whatever, the point is I am going to leave my thoughts to myself and only be his friend.