Why is it that even when I do a good job on something it is never enough?

Why does it matter so much then?

When your asleep, I'm trying to better myself just for you

When I try to do something it is ALWAYS wrong.

I sit in bed thinking all the names you have called me

Moron..

  Useless

        Brain dead

Am I really not enough?

You say you love me

 Then the next moment you make me feel like I am nothing

Am I dumb for feeling that?

Am I really stupid?

The other day I fell down the stairs the only person who cared was barely interested.

I got up feeling kinda numb, realizing how much I really felt that day

  The following night, I just went numb. Walked to my bead buried my face in my blankets and cried.

Do I know why? No

 Why can't I be normal? Sane and secure in myself?

"Your so smart"

 "MORON!"

"I love you"

"GO AWAY! I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR FACE!"

Am I.....

Enough for you?

Am I enough for.... me?