IV

Always thinking

Never acting

Will I forever live this way?

With my mind in disarray?

I take a sip from my cup

Thinking what I am not

The red wine from the glass

Is a bloody mirror that won’t last.

Simply poison to my mind

Making thoughts go wild

This glass contains all my sorrow

That makes me feel completely hollow.

With lies I try to change reality

But is a result of my own negativity.

Yet I continue to see the bloody world

And my story shall forever be untold.

V

Lost today, the same way

My mind begins to wander

Hours pass, till at last

I wake up in an empty room.

On the walls, there are masks,

Whose faces stare at me and laugh

And the picture, from behind,

Recalls the good old times.

But that feeling turns to pain 

For what I had were lies I made

Ooohhh, the memories seem so alive

Even though the colors are gone.

Can’t escape my imagination

This pretend world has become my sanctuary.

Why I’m I addicted to those lies,

When the person I once was

Has now become my shadow?

VI

No need no alcohol

To escape this sad world

Don’t have to smoke my lungs

With stinking cigarettes

My only holly drug I use

Are the lies I abuse

VII

Do I need to say goodbye

To what use to make me smile?

And can I live it all behind

When memories come to mind?

I don’t want to feel this way

But my heart just won’t obey.

Tring to climb this endless wall

Will sure to be a nasty fall.

Doesn’t matter, day or night,

I keep searching for what’s right.

-So don’t judge me-

I’ve been at my worst

Yet pulled it together,

Searching for the lost

Just to wander forever.

You know how it feels

To wither inside

Like a tiny flower

Under the cruel sun?

-I will break free-

Don’t need to be told

What to do or to say,

Every single word

Is a distance away.

-Got to break this chains-

From around myself.

I will not admit defeat,

Keep carrying on my feet.

I won’t fall in the abyss

Searching simply for sweet bliss.

I can never change the past,

So I’ll make it not last.

VIII

Oh, sad man, why is life so miserable?

You make it so yourself and still complain.

Wise man, why knowing feels so treasonous?

You choose not to be blind like them.

Rich man, why beauty is so expensive?

You can see it free of charge.

Oh, poor man, why can happiness be bought?

You can never sale it in the first place.