I looked at the empty plate on the floor. Empty... like my whole being at this moment.

"I'm hungry."

Very hungry... I... don't know what to do with my life... What do I do now? I lost everything... I lost the person I loved the most... And I don't know if I can move on with my life.

My grandmother is the person I love the most in my life. She raised me, gave me a home, food, love... Thanks to her, I am the person I am now. A kind, polite, and respectful guy to everyone. She taught me never to use bad words. She taught me to respect people's lives. She taught me to be empathetic. She taught me what is right and what is not... She taught me to be a good human being. Thanks to my grandmother, I am what I am now. Without her, I would not be happy... My grades are almost perfect. My grandmother worked all day to pay for my school and feed me. Despite being poor, I never lacked food. My grandmother raised me without anyone's help. She fed me, clothed me, and educated me without anyone's help. We never received government aid. Despite my excellent grades, I could never get a scholarship... But, even though we were very poor, we were happy.

"Happy... Grandma, you made me very happy, I will always be grateful to you... But... were you happy?"

I don't know... You never treated me badly... I never saw you angry... You were always so cheerful and smiling... Were you really happy, or were you pretending to be happy so as not to worry me? Despite your advanced age, you worked all day to bring food home... Did you enjoy your life?

"Or did I ruin your life?"

I'm scared to think that you couldn't enjoy your old age because you had to support me... A woman your age should have been at home resting, not working... I... ruined your life.

"I'm sorry, Grandma... Forgive me."

I always tried to be a perfect boy. I wanted my grandmother to be proud of me, but... now that she's gone, it's not worth trying anymore... First, I lost my parents, and now I lost the person I loved the most. I lost my grandmother... Is it worth being alive?

Debts accumulate... We have always been poor, so we have no savings... I... I don't know what to do.

I have no money, no job... I have nothing to sell... I have nothing.

... What if I become a prostitute?

"No... No..."

I shouldn't do it... My grandmother would be disappointed in me if I worked in something so dangerous and indecent.

Besides... why stay alive? Life doesn't make sense anymore.

"Grandma... I don't know if I can go on without you... I... I don't know what to do with my life."

I put my grandmother's picture on an altar... or an attempted altar... I don't have money to buy a frame... I put some flowers that I stole from the park on the altar... I stole flowers from a park... I don't even have money for flowers... I'm sorry, Grandma... I'm so sorry.

"Forgive me... You deserve better... But I'm not capable of getting it."

I'm sorry for being useless, Grandma. I'm sorry for being so weak... Forgive me.

I know I have to move on, that's what you would want, but... no... I don't want to.

Why did I study so hard? So you would be proud of me.

Why was I still alive? Because I wanted to stay by your side.

... I... Did I not enjoy life?

I don't know... I have Sonia, my girlfriend. I have my best friend, Cris... I still have important people in my life, but... it's not the same... I lost the only reason I worked hard for... I lost it forever.

I was only happy when I was with my grandma... I was also happy with Sonia and Cris, but... it didn't feel the same... Is this depression? Maybe... But one thing I'm sure of... I don't want to keep feeling like this.

Without family... Without money... Is it worth staying alive? I still have my girlfriend and my best friend, but my presence would only bring them problems. I don't want to be a burden to them. I don't want them to feel sorry for me... I don't want to bother them with my presence.

I don't want strangers to have to support me... I don't want to receive pity from people... I don't want to.

"Grandma... Thank you for everything..."

... Tears...? Tears...

I can't help but cry... Grandma... I don't know what to do... I don't know.

I don't want to receive pity from people. I don't want to be a nuisance.

... I'm starving... I was rejected from all jobs... And they only offered me a job cleaning houses...

"But I can't take those jobs.... I don't want "it" to happen again.... I don't want them to try to rape me again.... I don't want to be touched... I don't want to, I don't want to."

My body won't stop trembling... No... No, no, no... Don't remember anything, Daniel... Don't...

... Grandma, I think I hate my life without you... The sexual harassment, the rape attempts... The rape... The bullying at school. The teasing for being poor... Grandma, you were the light in my dark life.

Sonia, Cris, I'm sorry, but you are just matches in this deep and dark cave called life, and my grandmother was the sun.

I can't live my life without her.

"Grandma... I'll miss you so much."

I don't know if paradise exists... I don't believe in God, but... If it does, I hope to see you again in that place.

Thank you for everything. Sorry for so little... I hope you're resting in peace, grandma... I love you... And I will always love you. In this life and any other.

Goodbye, grandma... I hope to see you again... And I suspect it will be very soon.

I don't want to live without you... I don't know how to live without you.

"Daniel..."

That voice... I was so distracted crying and thinking about my problems that I didn't realize he came in.

I turned to my left... It's Cris, my best friend... My only friend. Sonia is also my friend, but she's my girlfriend... Oh, I'm so stressed that I don't know what I'm thinking.

Sonia, the girl I've been in love with since we were kids.

Cris, Sonia and I have been friends since elementary school.

Sonia is the only girl I've ever loved, I'm so lucky to have her by my side. The only reason I'm still alive and haven't committed suicide is because I still have my best friends by my side. Even though they're matches in this deep cave, they're still important in my life.

Especially Sonia, the girl of my dreams. The only girl who fell in love with me for my personality and not my appearance. The love of my life. If I manage to move on with my life, I want to start a family with her.

"Sorry for coming in without permission, Daniel. Did I come at a bad time? I'm sorry, but I want to talk to you about something important."

"Don't worry... Hi, Cris... I would offer you something, but I have nothing... Nothing..."

Not even food... I'm starving, but I don't want others to pity me.

I feel like my stomach is eating itself. Fortunately, I'm not dehydrated, because I drank water from a public restroom sink... Water from a public restroom... I've fallen so low.

I don't have gas. I don't have water... Not even electricity... I have nothing... Nothing! I'm useless without my grandmother... Useless and unable to stand on my own.

I hate this... I hate it... I hate it, I hate it, I hate it! I don't think I can endure my situation any longer.

Sonia, I want to see you, but I haven't bathed in days... I don't want you to see me in this state... You deserve someone much better than me.

... I think I'll break up with her. I love her, but I don't want to embarrass her. I don't want her to be known as the girlfriend of a disgusting bum like me, who doesn't bathe.

It will hurt me, but it's for her own good.

"... Daniel, we need to talk... I was debating whether to tell you or not, but I decided to tell you... You deserve to know the truth... We can't talk here. Let's go to a quieter place with fresh air."

"Yes... Yes, of course."

I hope it's not more bad news. My heart can't take it.

Cris, you look too serious... Please don't be more bad news.

Humans against demons.

CHAPTER 1- A New Purpose.

My name is Daniel and I'll tell you a bit about myself. I have black hair, a bit long as I avoid cutting it for months, mainly to save money. My eyes are light brown and I'm not very muscular, just thin (mainly because even though I eat every day, I eat very little so that the food lasts longer).

What stands out the most about me? Well... Ah... I'm a somewhat good-looking guy, but I really don't care, in fact, it bothers me, as it has caused me many problems in my life. At school, other boys always tease and hit me, mainly out of envy, or because their girlfriends try to flirt with me. But I almost never defend myself, I don't want to cause problems for my grandmother, I only defend myself when they really make me angry.

I don't defend myself most of the time because I'm afraid of getting into trouble with dangerous people. I'm poor, after all. It's easy to kill or kidnap a person as poor as me, who lives in a dangerous and shady area of the city.

My grandmother and I live together, she's the only relative I have... We're very poor, but at least we managed to survive and be happy together... Although everything changed... I lost her forever.

My grandmother died recently. Her heart stopped working and she died of a heart attack. They couldn't save her.

Her death affected me too much. She was the only relative I had... Now I'm alone... And I realized how useless I am. I don't know how to move forward on my own... I don't know what I'll do with my life.

I sold some of my few things to pay for the funeral, but I don't care. As long as I can give her a dignified burial, I don't mind having to sell my things.

I have several problems on my mind and I don't know what to do... How will I live? Will I be able to support myself...? I try to get a job, but no one hires me.

I was rejected for all jobs... I hate this... I hate it.

Ah... I really don't know what to do with my life.

"So, what did you want to tell me?"

At this moment, I'm standing in front of my best friend, he said he wanted to tell me something important. We met in a park.

The atmosphere became very uncomfortable. He looks at me with... pity... He pities me...

I hate that look, but it's the only one he can give me right now. I'm disgusting right now, even I know that.

I don't want to be pitied.

"I'm sorry, Daniel."

Ah... I hope it's not bad news... huh?

"..."

He showed me a photo on his phone... A photo, that finished breaking my heart.

It's a photo of my girlfriend, kissing another guy. My heart breaks when I see the photo... She's cheating on me... The love of my life, is cheating on me.

She was one of my few reasons to keep going in life... No... She was the only reason I had... I... I... I don't know how to react... Why? Why did she do this to me?

I loved her, and I thought she loved me too.

I thought our relationship was working... I know I had planned to break up with her recently, but...

Why did she do this to me?

Why with that idiot?

Why did she cheat on me?

... Tears...? Again... But I can't help crying. The girl I've loved for so many years is cheating on me with another guy.

Honestly, I don't know how to feel about it. Should I be angry, sad, or disappointed? I think what I feel is a mix of those feelings inside me.

Sonia is cheating on me... The girl I love is cheating on me...

"Sonia..."

"I'm sorry, I know what you're going through, but I can't let my sister fool you... I'm sorry, if you need help, you can count on my help and my family's, and you know that."

When my grandmother died, Cris's family, my best friend, offered to help me, but I refused their help. I don't want to be a bother.

... Sonia is cheating on me... Well... Ah... Yes, I suppose nothing matters anymore. It's not worth giving importance to that issue right now.

She cheated on me, that can't change. What's done is done. The healthiest thing would be to simply end my relationship with her and move on... But now that Sonia has cheated on me, I officially have nothing important in my life.

What's the point of living a gray and empty life? I've been deceived.

I thought Sonia loved me. I thought she fell in love with me for being Daniel and not just for being a pretty face... But I guess she didn't fall in love with Daniel, she fell in love with the pretty face.

Falling in love with someone for their physical appearance isn't love, it's just sexual attraction. But falling in love with someone for who they are, their personalities, that's romantic love.

I thought Sonia had fallen in love with me for who I am and my feelings... I was stupid to believe that was possible.

Life has treated me like garbage. The only good things I had were my grandmother and my friends. But now, my grandmother is dead, Sonia cheated on me, and Cris pities me.

My life has become complete garbage. And what do you do with garbage? You discard it.

"Yes... But I don't want to bother your family... I'll be fine... Thank you for telling me, you'll always be my best friend... I-I have to go... I need to rest."

"Yes, I understand."

"And... Well... You tell Sonia that we're over, and she should never speak to me again. It's extreme, but I don't think I can talk to her again."

"I agree with your decision. Knowing you, I was prepared to punch you if you planned on forgiving her. She may be my sister, but infidelity is never forgiven."

"Yes, I know... Goodbye, Cris... And thank you for everything... Thank you..."

I approached him and hugged him tightly.

"Daniel?"

"Thank you for everything, Cris... Thank you for being friends with someone like me."

"Daniel..."

"I have to go... Goodbye."

I walk away and start crying even more than before. That really affected me... My heart hurts... And a lot... I really loved her. I loved her too much. I thought I would marry her. I wanted her to be the mother of my children... But I guess she didn't love me.

We should have never been together... I am doomed to not be genuinely loved... I'll say goodbye to this love thing. I doubt I'll ever fall in love again.

I want to end my suffering... I don't want to live anymore.

I'm sorry, grandma... What I'm going to do is very cowardly, but I really can't stand it... You died, I can't find a job, I don't have money to buy food, and now Sonia is cheating on me... I know you'll be disappointed in me and I'm sorry, but... I've decided to commit suicide... I'll see you soon, grandma.

"It's not worth living anymore."