My first memory is of you

Cold tongue on my skin

Before I was old enough

To even go to school

Your favorite little play thing

Locked up in a toy box

When I didn't do

Exactly as you say

Apologize over and over

Cause clearly it's my fault

I'm a bad girl

I did something wrong

Why else would you touch me like this

Why else would you hit me like this

Why else would you yell at me like this

Why else would you do all of this

Scared little girl

Locked up in a toy box

Scared little girl

Crying in the dark

You brought out the towel

I'm backed against the wall

Over my face it goes

Along with the cans of beer

It's hard to apologize

As you're choking

But I try regardless

Because it's all my fault

You step up to me at school

Tell me to get into detention

You meet me there

Along with your friends

The teacher always leaves

Then the commands come

Showing off my body

All for your pleasure

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I won't do it again

Just please don't hurt me

Please, I'm so sorry

Dress at my ankles

Shivering in the cold

You pay me no mind

My voice goes unheard

I can still taste that sock

I can still feel all eight hands

The rest is all black

Brain too young to process

My first memory is of you

But I'm doing better now

Even if you're still allowed

At the family reunion