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Ailments of Yearning

002 | invitation; pain manipulation (part 2)

002 | invitation; pain manipulation (part 2)

Jan 15, 2025

Although trembles of faint pain continued to prick along his skin, he commanded the energy that he felt warping around the man, demanding its attention and excitement.

The man’s eyes widened a margin in surprise as he looked around at the air—where his dense energy continued to fluctuate wildly.

“What are you doing?” he wondered in a low murmur, but his voice revealed no hints of pain, only calm curiosity.

Ian furrowed his eyebrows, feeling an ache in his mind as he willed the energy to surge, to run and go crazy in the man’s body, until he could hardly breathe. Until he was on the verge of a meltdown.

Red and black energy spiked, stabbing into the air. The man continued to watch it quietly before he released one hand, settling the other over Ian’s unguarded neck. It was laid bare, exposed and vulnerable.

“I asked a question.”

“And who the hell says I have to answer?” retorted Ian fearlessly, twisting his head sideways and he heaved.

The man’s hands tightened, and Ian gasped. His hands were scorching hot, like burning coals. “Internal energy manipulation. An overlooked possibility.”

He smiled. It was a pretty smile, Ian thought in his blurring thoughts, his vision scattered with black spots. The man continued as if he were entirely uninterested in hearing a response.

“What happens if I reject you?”

It happened in seconds. The surge of energy jerked out of Ian’s grasp, neither obeying its master nor the manipulator, resisting against both of the controllers—against Ian and this man.

Its resistance was violent, thrashing against both bodies, spilling into the air between them as it developed into a climbing heat.

Pain—no, it was agony. White-hot agony made its home in his bones, in every pulsing vein that ran along his body. Ian gasped, mouth gaping like a fish out of water, pathetically squirming in pain.

It was a pain that should’ve belonged to them both, but the man continued to observe with silent indifference.

Like he wasn’t really there.

Then everything crashed, spilling to the ground around them and the man released his grasp, leaning back in his arrogance. Ian rolled sideways, coughing. His entire body was drenched in sweat.

The man moved, sitting on the edge of the bed, his long legs stretched out as his coat fell around his thighs. His leather shoe touched Lucian’s curled body on the ground.

“Don’t touch him,” hissed Ian, his voice hoarse. “Don’t you dare touch him.”

“Your lover?”

“More than that.” Less than that, was what Ian didn’t say. A companion from the beginning, neither friend nor foe, family nor lover. Lucian was nothing at all, but if he was in danger, Ian could not look away.

The man stood, looking around the disarray. The door had slid shut again, shutting them out from the rest of the institution.

Although screams did little here, anyway.

He briefly regarded the collapsed Esper. “In three days, I’ll file a report.”

Ian snarled, fingers curling around the sheets. “Report me. See what they’ll do.”

A card flipped between the man’s slender fingers. His ID card—all Guides and Espers were required to have one. It had all their information on it, and could be used as an emergency access card if their watches were to fail.

It beeped on the man’s watch, and a beam of light emerged from the small surface, reflecting in a holographic image.

He saw his portrait, a gloomy face, appear.

“Ian. One known relative—deceased. Rank F.” The Esper turned his head towards his hands, curling his fingers in as if to capture lingering warmth. “What if I reported an unusual manifestation of ability—Inverted Healing?”

Ian calmed his leaping heart. His years of silence would’ve been for nothing if that was reported.

“You’re telling me all this—why? I doubt you enjoy gossip.”

The Esper tilted his head, toying with the card in his hands. “I could have a particular interest in watching your face twist.”

“You’re interested in that? I could recommend you to several people.”

“Several people aren’t you.”

“I don’t know you.”

He leaned in closer, settling beside Ian’s face. His eyes reflected nothing; his voice a low whisper wrapped in something discomforting, but not unpleasant either.

“Do you want to?”

Ian leveled his gaze, incredulous. “Something’s wrong with your head. Get it checked up.”

“Are you concerned?”

“Yes, I’m worried for the future of humanity with genes like yours.”

There was a breath of laughter from the Esper, a sound so slight that Ian wasn’t sure it was genuine. He wasn’t sure anything was, coming from this relaxed person with indifferent eyes.

The disparity between his words and the blankness in his gaze was disorientating.

Ian shook his head, rubbing his red wrists. “To make that report, you’d need evidence. Your little darling over there won’t remember a thing—intoxicated and beaten up. His mind will be a mess,” A grin spread over his lips, revealing a pointed canine. “I made sure of it.”

The Esper wasn’t deterred, lightly tapping his watch. “It’s unfortunate, but our watches have recordings installed, unlike yours.”

Ian’s body tensed, turning frigid. He’d overlooked it—a mistake on his part, too eager to save Lucian. There were many features and benefits Espers received in the Underground that Guides didn’t.

Furthermore, down here, Guides were products to be scanned and scrutinized. A thing like privacy was a foreign concept.

There were certain benefits unlocked as Guides progressed to higher floors depending on their level. There were three levels.

The third housed the visiting Espers that were looking for fun, or to find a successful partner to participate in battle with. The second belonged to the more powerful Guides, where they were trained to eventually assimilate into society and the world beyond the walls.

Fighting, academics, common sense—plenty of things were taught.

On the first floor were those expected to serve as ‘toys’ to visiting Espers, or if they were lucky on the evening of the Culling, a chance to go to the surface.

For the most part, they were taught mindless lessons of the world, all biased to believe in their inferiority. There were basic stimulation rooms in case one of them were lucky enough to attract an Esper’s attention.

From his earliest age, he was straightened and developed, like a soldier primed for battle, like a tool polished and ready to be used.

Only, he was a faulty tool.

If the sequence of events hadn’t collapsed in the way they did, perhaps he would be like Lucian, adhering to the rules and seeking salvation in an Esper’s arms, a path to the surface that wasn’t prohibited.

The hand on his neck remained firm, but the other—broad and rough from a hundred battles—brushed over his eyes. Each touch was electric, prickling against his skin as his eyelashes quivered.

They were of long and straight, grazing the height of his cheeks.

His heart was seized with fear, every touch a hanging threat that weighed above his skin. Their energies tangled together still untethered, and his emotions spiraled.

“Three days,” repeated the Esper once more, pulling away and leaving only the phantom of his heat alive against Ian’s skin. “Show me what you can do.”

He swiftly untangled himself, striding towards the door and revealing his broad back clad in a sweeping coat. He turned his back to Ian, but revealed an unpenetrable defense.

Ian lifted himself on the sheets, limbs twisted with the half-fallen sheets. His raven eyes fixated on the figure.

“Is that an invitation?” he sneered, furrowing his straight eyebrows.

The Esper’s head turned, the sharp profile of his face brushed by the waning lights in the outside hall. His lips remained flattened, but Ian thought he saw a curl of amusement, of daring, twist.

Energy crackled between them, the stray strands of crimson and black tangling in the air. They’d escaped into the air, sinking it into a gloomy weight of despair, with nowhere to go. Slowly, the energy was trickling back into the man’s skin.

“I welcome you, guest.” A flat tone; a voice that neither anticipated nor expected anything.

Ian’s hands curled into the blankets, fisting them with an air of powerlessness.

Guides were raised and bred in this underground institution to be malleable, weaker, and powerless. Cultivated to remain stagnant, imprisoned in this space.

He knew it—that there were parts of him that couldn’t rival those on the surface, Esper or human, that there were variations of his weakness that he couldn’t control.

Not yet.

The person before him suddenly seemed like a golden ticket, glistening within arm’s reach, yet taunting him in the short distance it remained. An opportunity.

A reliable person, not in their sense of trustworthiness or honesty, but in their ability. A person that he wouldn’t feel sorry to ruin or betray.

A spark infused in Ian’s dark stare.

“Then be prepared to host me,“ said the Guide. The Esper stepped outside, the metal door sliding as his frosty blue eyes began to disappear. Their eyes locked. “In three days time.”

In his black eyes reflected an entire universe, far beyond the only walls that he’d ever known.


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Ian is weak, that is a truth. He's self-sufficient and relatively strong, but compared to evolved humans made to be stronger than everybody else, he is weak. In description, he is a weak Guide with a unique control of energy, seeking a vengeance that is far beyond his abilities.

But this is only the beginning. And he will become so much more than what he is.

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I hope you're 2025 has all been going magically, and if not, I hope you're able to find some time to rest, take a warm path, eat good food, or take an unbothered nap! Thank you for reading~ and I'll see you next week!

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One sentence summary: In which a bottom-ranked, vengeful Guide crawls to the top of humanity and joyously slaps the top-ranked Esper onto his knees.Read more
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46 episodes

  • 00 | outliers; they exist to bring devastation
    Episode 1 00 | outliers; they exist to bring devastation
  • 01 | smile; in an empty gaze (part 1)
    Episode 2 01 | smile; in an empty gaze (part 1)
  • 01 | smile; in an empty gaze (part 2)
    Episode 3 01 | smile; in an empty gaze (part 2)
  • 002 | invitation; pain manipulation (part 1)
    Episode 4 002 | invitation; pain manipulation (part 1)
  • 002 | invitation; pain manipulation (part 2)
    Episode 5 002 | invitation; pain manipulation (part 2)
  • 003 | eye; of perky importance (part 1)
    Episode 6 003 | eye; of perky importance (part 1)
  • 003 | eye; of perky importance
    Episode 7 003 | eye; of perky importance
  • 04 | kill; weight of death (part one)
    Episode 8 04 | kill; weight of death (part one)
  • 04 | kill; weight of death (part two)
    Episode 9 04 | kill; weight of death (part two)
  • 05 | minutes; erupting core (part one)
    Episode 10 05 | minutes; erupting core (part one)
  • 05 | minutes; erupting core (chapter two)
    Episode 11 05 | minutes; erupting core (chapter two)
  • 06 | birth; of the destruction guide (part one)
    Episode 12 06 | birth; of the destruction guide (part one)
  • 06 | birth; of a destruction guide (part two)
    Episode 13 06 | birth; of a destruction guide (part two)
  • 07 | greed; in six months (part one)
    Episode 14 07 | greed; in six months (part one)
  • 07 | greed; in six months (part two)
    Episode 15 07 | greed; in six months (part two)
  • 08 | zones; under the crescent moon
    Episode 16 08 | zones; under the crescent moon
  • 08 | zones; under the crescent moon (part two)
    Episode 17 08 | zones; under the crescent moon (part two)
  • 09 | deviation; milk and water (part one)
    Episode 18 09 | deviation; milk and water (part one)
  • 09 | deviation; milk and water (part two)
    Episode 19 09 | deviation; milk and water (part two)
  • 10 | diluted; rage behind his gaze (part one)
    Episode 20 10 | diluted; rage behind his gaze (part one)
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