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Still Beating

CH.17

CH.17

Nov 17, 2025

It was Daniel who broke the silence first.

Not with words—just a shift in posture, a quiet readjustment on the couch that made Adrian look up. His brother wasn’t fidgeting; he was grounding himself, trying to settle into a room that held more truth than either of them usually allowed.

“You said it out loud,” Daniel finally murmured. “You never do that.”

Adrian didn’t look away. “Maybe I should have sooner.”

Daniel huffed a soft breath, almost a laugh. “Yeah. That would’ve been nice.”

Elara watched them both from her seat on the opposite side, not intervening, not guiding—just being present, anchoring the room the way she always seemed to do. Her chart lay forgotten on the table. She hadn’t stepped away, despite every internal signal telling her she should give family space. But Adrian had asked her to stay.

And she had stayed.

Daniel leaned forward, elbows on his knees. “I thought you were angry at me,” he said. “When you didn’t respond all day.”

“I wasn’t,” Adrian answered. “I just… didn’t know how to start.”

Daniel shook his head slowly. “You could’ve just said something simple. ‘Busy.’ ‘Later.’ Anything.”

“I know.”

“But you didn’t.”

“No.”

There was no defense, no practiced explanation. Adrian’s voice held the rough honesty of someone unused to admitting something so bare.

Daniel exhaled, the breath catching at the edges. “I’m scared sometimes, you know.”

Adrian’s chest tightened. “Of what?”

“Of losing you.”

The words were simple. Not dramatic. But they hit with the force of years—years of distance neither of them had meant to build, of worry Daniel had carried alone because Adrian had taught him, unintentionally, to read silence as danger.

Adrian swallowed. “I didn’t realize it was that bad.”

“It’s not bad,” Daniel corrected quietly. “It’s just real.”

Elara shifted slightly, her gaze softening—not intruding, but understanding in a way that didn’t need history to interpret the moment.

Daniel ran a hand through his hair, exhaling shakily. “Mom used to say you were the strong one. I think she said it so many times both of us started believing it.”

Adrian closed his eyes for a moment. “I’m not.”

“I know.” Daniel’s voice cracked. “I just didn’t know you’d forgotten you weren’t supposed to be.”

Something broke open between them then—not a fracture, but the splitting of something long calcified. Adrian didn’t move, but something in his expression shifted, a tired acceptance overtaking the rigidity he usually kept in place.

He spoke quietly. “I’m trying.”

“I can tell.”

The quiet that followed wasn’t empty. It was the kind that let a truth settle without rushing to cover it.

Elara finally spoke—not as a doctor, not as someone filling silence, but as the person who’d seen Adrian at the edge tonight.

“People don’t fall apart because they’re weak,” she said softly. “They fall apart because they’ve been holding too much for too long.”

Daniel looked at her, something almost grateful flickering through his features. “You… know him well.”

She didn’t flinch or deflect. “I pay attention.”

Daniel turned back to Adrian. “I’m glad she does.”

Adrian wasn’t sure what to do with that, so he looked down at his hands—steady now, finally steady. “I’m learning,” he murmured. “To not disappear. To answer. To let people in.”

Daniel nodded. “Good.”

Another silence settled—this one warmer, easier.

Elara glanced at the clock, then at Adrian. “You should lie down for a bit. Even half an hour will help.”

He didn’t argue. “You’ll be around?”

“I said I would.”

Daniel stood, stretching slightly. “I should give you both space.”

Adrian tensed. “You don’t have to leave.”

Daniel smiled—tired, but real. “I’ll be close. I just… needed to see you were okay enough to leave you in good hands.”

Elara’s brows lifted. “That’s a generous assumption.”

“Trust me,” Daniel said, “I’m not that generous.”

Adrian let out a breath that might’ve been a laugh if he weren’t so worn down.

Daniel headed toward the door, hesitated, then looked back. “I’ll check in tomorrow.”

“I’ll answer,” Adrian said.

Daniel’s expression softened with something like relief. “Goodnight, Adrian.”

“Goodnight.”

When the door shut, the room fell into a quieter quiet—one that didn’t echo.

Elara stood and picked up the blanket folded over the back of a chair. She didn’t ask permission; she simply approached and held it out.

Adrian watched her, something unspoken passing between them.

“Lie down,” she said gently. “Just rest.”

He moved to the couch, exhaling as he lowered himself. She draped the blanket over him—not lingering, not tentative, but careful.

“Elara,” he murmured when she straightened.

She paused. “Yeah?”

“Thank you.”

Her expression softened without breaking. “Get some sleep.”

He let his eyes close, the weight of the blanket grounding him more than exhaustion alone could. His body finally gave in—not to collapse, but to rest.

Before drifting off, he felt a presence settle into the chair beside him.

Not touching.  
Not hovering.  
Just there.

And the last thought that drifted through his mind before sleep took him was simple, startling, and quiet:

He wasn’t afraid of the silence anymore.

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