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[PART 3]
And when classes started, we had new people who made me uncomfortable, they made me even more insecure about myself, this year was weird up till now because it happened that I lived with two more girls in the room but they moved out, one because of fees, the other one because she and her boyfriend got room for themselves to live in… I still checked my comic, stats and all that stuff but I was in a mood when I literally wanted it all to fall apart, wanted everyone to forget about Heartbound so it could rise from ashes like a phoenix or at least something like that. And now I can say I’m finally calm after this time, started some art learning to feel confident and finally I summoned my inner demons to kick me hard in the buttocks so Heartbound’d finally restart and I’d finally FINALLY apologise to you. So, what about the comic? Well… I have maybe one or two more pages drawn in storyboard for the current scene and recently I’ve deicded to work on the next one from the beggining which means I won’t upload immediately. But I’ll stock some more storyboard pages and start working on it. Posting this is just the beggining and a declaration so I won’t look for more excuses to not focus on it. Heartbound may not be my most passionate project, I’m struggling with the story I wanted to tell since high school, but I won’t abandon the comic. I’ll take breaks if necessary with proper announcements but I’m not backing off. I still love it and want to continue it. I know it’s not something I’d ever expect but I hope that maybe some of you will come back here.
Once again I’m really sorry for my mistakes and thank you for reading this unholy wall of text. Hope to see you again soon!
PS. There’s something I really owe you now… Here’s special for 2k views! You’re the best!
PPS. Sorry for any misspells! >^<
PPPS. Once again sorry for so much unnecesary text but you know what? I kinda needed to let it out. It feels much better now.
And when classes started, we had new people who made me uncomfortable, they made me even more insecure about myself, this year was weird up till now because it happened that I lived with two more girls in the room but they moved out, one because of fees, the other one because she and her boyfriend got room for themselves to live in… I still checked my comic, stats and all that stuff but I was in a mood when I literally wanted it all to fall apart, wanted everyone to forget about Heartbound so it could rise from ashes like a phoenix or at least something like that. And now I can say I’m finally calm after this time, started some art learning to feel confident and finally I summoned my inner demons to kick me hard in the buttocks so Heartbound’d finally restart and I’d finally FINALLY apologise to you. So, what about the comic? Well… I have maybe one or two more pages drawn in storyboard for the current scene and recently I’ve deicded to work on the next one from the beggining which means I won’t upload immediately. But I’ll stock some more storyboard pages and start working on it. Posting this is just the beggining and a declaration so I won’t look for more excuses to not focus on it. Heartbound may not be my most passionate project, I’m struggling with the story I wanted to tell since high school, but I won’t abandon the comic. I’ll take breaks if necessary with proper announcements but I’m not backing off. I still love it and want to continue it. I know it’s not something I’d ever expect but I hope that maybe some of you will come back here.
Once again I’m really sorry for my mistakes and thank you for reading this unholy wall of text. Hope to see you again soon!
PS. There’s something I really owe you now… Here’s special for 2k views! You’re the best!
PPS. Sorry for any misspells! >^<
PPPS. Once again sorry for so much unnecesary text but you know what? I kinda needed to let it out. It feels much better now.
Do not worry, take your time when your ready, cool paintings on the background. It's good that you feel better and hope it stayed that way.
[PART 2]
I had other, much more developed projects that I wanted to remake for years but I doubt that pushing some BL drama down the professor’s throat would be a good thing for my degree. So I continued with this messy story. But I still compared myself to others thinking I took an easy way with project which made me emotionally worn out. But I loved that. I loved seeing interest, reading your comments and replying to them (even if it took me over an hour to answer for a single one). The only thing that’s more on the meh side is self-promoting because I’m retarted and don’t know how-to social media etc. But then came another mistake: I started comparing myself to other creators who started posting around the same time as I did because I’m like competetive af. I was taught to always be the best of the best and even if know it’s stupid and I shouldn’t do things like this… Well, I never said I’m not a big dum-dum. But I kept it in an all-happy-positive way. It’s good that others did it well! So, I did my own work, got that degree, I continued like this through the summer, but my mood wasn’t still that good, only God knows why I was still stressed, then came the time I didn’t made anything for the posting time cause I was too slow. It was okay. But at the same time (it was september) I was back in the dorms and got temporarily a roommate… and it wasn’t good at all. In short we couldn’t be at peace because she’s rather day type and I prefer doing things at night so you can imagine how it turned out. In the end we had an argument over little things, she had her rights and wrongs as did I, she moved out - she’d still move out, but back then it felt awful and I was completely shattered because I’d never had argued with any of my past roommates and I lost some subscribers which felt like a failure to me.
I had other, much more developed projects that I wanted to remake for years but I doubt that pushing some BL drama down the professor’s throat would be a good thing for my degree. So I continued with this messy story. But I still compared myself to others thinking I took an easy way with project which made me emotionally worn out. But I loved that. I loved seeing interest, reading your comments and replying to them (even if it took me over an hour to answer for a single one). The only thing that’s more on the meh side is self-promoting because I’m retarted and don’t know how-to social media etc. But then came another mistake: I started comparing myself to other creators who started posting around the same time as I did because I’m like competetive af. I was taught to always be the best of the best and even if know it’s stupid and I shouldn’t do things like this… Well, I never said I’m not a big dum-dum. But I kept it in an all-happy-positive way. It’s good that others did it well! So, I did my own work, got that degree, I continued like this through the summer, but my mood wasn’t still that good, only God knows why I was still stressed, then came the time I didn’t made anything for the posting time cause I was too slow. It was okay. But at the same time (it was september) I was back in the dorms and got temporarily a roommate… and it wasn’t good at all. In short we couldn’t be at peace because she’s rather day type and I prefer doing things at night so you can imagine how it turned out. In the end we had an argument over little things, she had her rights and wrongs as did I, she moved out - she’d still move out, but back then it felt awful and I was completely shattered because I’d never had argued with any of my past roommates and I lost some subscribers which felt like a failure to me.
We always got someone to argue with in our life and that is the norm of things and it comes and goes, and losing subscribers is a common thing. I've experience this here on Tapas.
Hello everyone.
It’ll be rather a longer post for those readers who are interested in what I want to say, so since you’re all still reading I want to say: I’m truly, sincerely sorry. I’m sorry for leaving everything for so much time, especially without a word. It was not okay and anything cannot excuse that. I have (or at least I had, have no idea if anyone is still waiting for my comic) a few readers that were so supporting at the right time and made me so happy and productive as in my golden days back in high school. It was very disrespectful to quit Tapas for all this time without informing you. It’s a mistake that shouldn’t be repeated ever again. I cannot promise I won’t take breaks like this anymore, since I often do stupid stuff while being stressed or emotional but I promise that I’ll give proper info and updates so you won’t be treated like this ever again.
And that was the important part. Now comes the part for those who want to hear me out just because while I’m in the whining-about-myself mood. Of course any of this is not to be treated as an excuse because I don’t have and don’t deserve any. I’m just the type of person that likes to know why some things happen and believe that at least you can get some explanation.
(damn, hope there isn’t anything weird in there, I’m just writing everything as it goes and posting it before I change my mind)
So the past year was very stresful for me just because we had project to do for our Bachelor Degree, little time for it and back then I started to feel much more insecure than usual. My friends and acquaintances were doing apps, games, simulations, animations and back then I didn’t know what I was good at enough. I wasn’t satisfied with my pro-hacker-programming skills (yup, I’m still studying the same field, it’s confirmed I’m a masochist). So I decided to make a comic and since I didn’t have that much time to waste I was planning, creating characters and world and all that stuff for two weeks before I began work.
It’ll be rather a longer post for those readers who are interested in what I want to say, so since you’re all still reading I want to say: I’m truly, sincerely sorry. I’m sorry for leaving everything for so much time, especially without a word. It was not okay and anything cannot excuse that. I have (or at least I had, have no idea if anyone is still waiting for my comic) a few readers that were so supporting at the right time and made me so happy and productive as in my golden days back in high school. It was very disrespectful to quit Tapas for all this time without informing you. It’s a mistake that shouldn’t be repeated ever again. I cannot promise I won’t take breaks like this anymore, since I often do stupid stuff while being stressed or emotional but I promise that I’ll give proper info and updates so you won’t be treated like this ever again.
And that was the important part. Now comes the part for those who want to hear me out just because while I’m in the whining-about-myself mood. Of course any of this is not to be treated as an excuse because I don’t have and don’t deserve any. I’m just the type of person that likes to know why some things happen and believe that at least you can get some explanation.
(damn, hope there isn’t anything weird in there, I’m just writing everything as it goes and posting it before I change my mind)
So the past year was very stresful for me just because we had project to do for our Bachelor Degree, little time for it and back then I started to feel much more insecure than usual. My friends and acquaintances were doing apps, games, simulations, animations and back then I didn’t know what I was good at enough. I wasn’t satisfied with my pro-hacker-programming skills (yup, I’m still studying the same field, it’s confirmed I’m a masochist). So I decided to make a comic and since I didn’t have that much time to waste I was planning, creating characters and world and all that stuff for two weeks before I began work.
Having a stressful life is enough to make an excuse, We've all been there.
Hello! I just wanted to say that I'm planning on experimenting with schedule for Heartbound a little bit. For now I'll stick with Mondays/Tuesdays as I did last time. If there'll be any change, I'll let you know. On the side note, I added sites I use on my profile. This is because some creators found sites that steal comics from Tapas and Webtoons so be wary of them. My work you can find only through links I provided. Have a nice day!
It's just a small thing compared to your comeback. I read your stories years ago and I love them so much! Keep going ~<3
<3<3 Thank you so much! That means a lot ;u;
