Hi, my name is Yoru Aoki and I'm a 17 year old teenage boy. I know. What a weird way to start a diary, right? But let me write down some things about myself because I don't know what I could forget next. I live with my parents. My mom is called Mia and my dad's name is Sousuke. When I'm alone, trying to escape reality by getting lost in my own thoughts is a regular thing for me to do. That's why I like drawing a lot. When I draw, I feel like I don't need to think about anything else and no matter how many hours I may work on a single part of what I want to create, I feel like I can be happy when I see everything coming together as I pleased, and being happy for me is a rare occasion. You see, I've been diagnosed with depression and I've been on medication for some time now. I'm getting better day by day and idealistically, I'm going to stop needing treatment in about a month. The only problem is that the medication I take, caused me to lose some part of my short term memory yesterday. Let me explain.
My day started quite normally. I woke up, had breakfast and I started listening to some music. When it was time for lunch, I just sat down with my parents and enjoyed the pork cutlet that my mom cooked. After that, I went back to my room to look something up on the internet. As I was on my computer, I started having the feeling that I forgot to do something. I looked at the time and it was five in the afternoon. Then it hit me. At first, I thought that I was too focused on what I was looking on my computer, that I forgot about lunch time. Even though I wasn't hungry, I just went down to the kitchen and I started preparing something to eat. My mom saw me and she laughed, asking me if the pork cutlet wasn't enough. By then, I knew something was wrong, but I didn't say anything. Instead, I laughed and went back to my room with the sandwich I just made. As I laid down on my bed, I realized that I couldn't remember anything that happened after the time I had breakfast. I couldn't understand why at that time, but after I did some research, I came to the conclusion that only one thing could be the cause of my memory loss. My medication. Well... I'm not 100% sure yet but that's my guess. The website suggested that I should change the medication I'm using, if that's the case, but I don't want to! I'm feeling so much better now and there's only a few weeks left until I'm done with the treatment. I don't want to risk going back to being depressed, so I decided to keep this side effect to myself and I started writing on this diary so that I won't forget something again.
Enough of that though. Another reason I'm writing, is that I'm kind of anxious about tomorrow. Tomorrow is Monday and it's also the first day that I'll go to my new school. You see, me and my parents moved to another city since my dad had to quit his job because his boss didn't treat him well at all. Luckily, he found another job pretty fast and now he's working at a Program Development Company. I don't exactly know what he's doing, but he's on his phone and his computer a lot. Even though he seems tired most of the time, he says that he likes his job. My mom has a job too. She is a chef and is currently working at a local restaurant. Speaking of jobs, I want to become a manga artist. I'm going to be in 12th grade now, which means I already started thinking about the college that I want to attend. I've been taking lessons for the past few years and I also draw a lot by myself. I'm really serious about this, so I'll be doing my best this year to get into that college!
Before I realized it, I fell asleep while writing and that's what my diary's first page looked like.
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