How much longer must I wait? How much more must I fight? I’m tired… I want to just let it all go, 38 years of looking for a family, only for it to all end like this.

“Surrender and you’ll at least avoid execution… I'll make sure of that.” He claimed with a sword against my neck… ‘How did we end up like this?’ I thought as I blinked slowly.

“Liar, all you nobles ever do is lie… I slaved away all my life for even a sliver of hope of finding my family, all I got in return were lies.” I spat, the toxin from the arrow must be spreading throughout my body by now, my mana drained to the bone unable to neutralise the toxin.

“Please just surrender, they will consider your situation and everyone else's too and then after I can…” Perhaps it was a desperate plea, but to me, it sounded like every other time he made a promise. Whether it was the promise of eternal love or the promise to always be by my side… in the end he meant none of it.

“Aha… HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA… I’d rather die than surrender to the likes of you. You who used my heart for your own gain, is this what you wanted?" With that, I stood up one last time and with the blade I used to cut so many lives, I ended it all with my own hands. Red blood splattered onto his black uniform and tears formed in my eyes for the first time in a long time.

“NO… oh God no… this isn’t what I wanted… I…I” Why is he crying so much? This really is the end, there is no God… If there was a God, why did he not answer to my cries? They say madness is a never-ending cycle, I must admit I’ve gone mad.

Just once more, if a God exists I pray for one more chance, to right the wrong… for a chance to find the people I’ve so desperately been searching for and another chance at love.

As my vision was fading the last thing I saw was the man I loved crying… 

Did you really love me? I don't know anymore, no… I don’t want to know anymore.